June 17, 2010


Hi there.

I'm gonna quit blogging for now, now that life has gotten better for me..
And also because I don't feel the need to blog anymore.

Bye readers.

June 7, 2010


Blog will be down until my Internet gets fixed.

May 24, 2010

Sigh. Really sigh.

Hi there.

It was a warm day once again, but the start of new school week and a new morning was awesome though. Joked with some friends and also revising for the MCQ test today. I continued my assignment to create a game character, an interactive object and a terrain object. I started off very well, by creating a character that I made up during the weekend and unfortunately I do not have Adobe Illustrator so I couldn't do it as homework. I named the character Itsumo Heiwa, which means "Peace. Forever." in Japanese. Unfortunately again, I forgotten to save the work and instead saved it as a .jpg file instead. I couldn't continue from there on and there's no recovery system somehow.. If you have a Facebook, go to my profile and look at the picture I drew. It was a very good start but due to my clumsiness, I have to re-do all over again. But I'll look on the bright side, I have an idea now! Haha!

Incomplete work of Itsumo Heiwa. Sigh. For those without Facebook..

He was supposed to wield a dual blade, I gave it a weird name though, called "The Twin Jennifers". Might improve on it.. As you noticed, he lost his left arm. I'm still thinking of a backstory to cover it.. More to come when I'm able to trace him back from scratch.. Sigh.

Next, I learned to make a Platform game (Mario, Sonic etc) and was successful at first try. I felt really good though, but the thing that sums up the whole day was not being able to save the design for Itsumo Heiwa. Sigh!

Off to draw him again!

Thanks for reading. Peace out.

May 22, 2010


Hi there.

Facebook fixed the spam pages, by shortening them instead. It's better than nothing. Finally there's a bright side to look at now. Time to enjoy the weekend..

Thanks for reading. Peace out.

May 21, 2010


Hi there. Weekend is here again!

Btw, if you haven't see this insanity in Facebook already, do so now.

Those "friends" of mine who actually LIKED this "I'm Awesome x 32000" are really something.. About 5 of my friends liked this and my Facebook news page is completely fucked, as you can see from the first picture. I know this kind of page will be removed by the Facebook officials, but knowing that some of my friends have a screw loose somewhere really irks me. I hid the stupid post anyway, but some people probably would scroll down like 1 fucking zillion times to see status updates. Seriously, what made them decide to LIKE this? For free movies? Use Torrents for fuck's sake. Zzz. People might flame me for this. It's just really annoying.

Like this wasn't the only annoying event for today. The new elevator construction, just outside my doorstep is driving me fucking nuts. The jackhammer noises is just plain insanity. Thank goodness it's only for a few weeks, otherwise I'll go insane. Instant headaches anyone?

I'm gonna indulge myself in some horror games.. To rid of my headaches.. Zzz.

Thanks for reading. Peace out.

May 20, 2010


Hi there.

Oh damn. Oh damn. The dreaded NAPFA test, hated by many!

Today was just the 4 stations. I passed all of it, for only a potential bronze. I WANT TO GET A DAMN SILVER. I'm definitely training for next year's NAPFA, since I'll be in ITE for 2 years only. The 42 km shirt and the Silver/Gold shirt as well! The S&W teachers certainly saved the "best" for last.. The killer, Pull-ups and 2.4km run. Man, I have no idea how I'm gonna pass the pull-up station.. And I'll do my best for 2.4km run. SIGH.

..and there wasn't much learning today. My lecturer had to go off early for some Naval Base something. I don't know. There was nothing much today.

Went home to play some Modern Warfare 2 with friends. For once, I actually played with friends. The feeling is different, but it's awesome! For 2 years, I've been playing on my own since almost none of my older friends play games.. Gotta enjoy it while it lasts.

Thanks for reading. Crashing soon. Peace out.

May 19, 2010

The short post. Again.

I don't know why..


Hit me.
Kick me.
Wrestle me.
Strangle me.

I read about a terrorist watchout in Orchard Road from a friend's blog. Man these lifeless terrorists, who only know how to kill. They're probably brainwashed from young and made to thought that killing is part of their life.

Or maybe.. You offend people, and you'll get twice as much payback. Karma is everywhere, sir.

I don't know man. If I were to die one day, I would die a sad man because I haven't gotten a girlfriend yet. Then again, I probably could meet my ex in heaven too. Haha.

Live life to the fullest!

Thanks for reading. Peace out.

May 18, 2010

Mosquitoes, argh.

Hi there.

Whenever there's rain, mosquitoes must fucking breed, seriously. Damn, mosquitoes are persistent bitches.

Anyway, today. I continued to the foot section of the human body. I think I mastered the foot already! Cool man. I learned to draw the faces of the male/female body and I have pretty much no problems for it. Do look at the photos I took during lessons in Facebook!

Now, something a little personal..

The reason why I hate most smokers is because they lack etiquette. You guys know that there's a good and a bad smoker. I try not to judge or stereotype smokers as a bunch of people with needed attitude adjustments, but the majority always overwrites my positive mind. The number 1 etiquette to all smokers is to light a stick away from the non-smokers. It doesn't mean that you have to exaggerate, you can just smoke about 7-8 feet away from a non-smoker.

When it's raining and you're waiting for a bus, don't fucking smoke man. The rain is depriving us of oxygen and smelling the gas toxins from a lighted cigarette isn't helping much. Of course, the most stupidest thing a smoker does is lighting a stick while waiting for a bus. Really. The bus arrives, you step on your stick and money wasted. Save your sticks when you NEED a break.. But of course, don't smoke in a toilet (Unless you're damn desperate), like the toilet isn't smelly enough..

Stereotypes aren't everything. I believe a smoker CAN BE A GOOD PERSON AS WELL, as long as he maintains the etiquette of a well mannered smoker, he'll still look cool like those action movie stars who never fail to smoke. Reason why I'm saying this is because this morning, some douchebag exhaled his smoke when I'm just standing beside him, really obvious that he wants me to go away.

I really want to believe that my friends who smoke aren't fucking douchebags like the guy this morning. If you were wondering, I don't smoke, I smoked once but hated it.

I hope so.

Thanks for reading. Peace out.

May 17, 2010

It rained at the right moment, for once.

Hi there.

I don't usually update during weekends, so if you were wondering, that's my explanation.

For once, it rained at the right moment. It rained early in the morning, say around 6-7 am? I woke up and was delighted to feel the cool morning breeze with added chills. I don't even miss the warm mornings at all. Not to mention, my handkerchief wasn't drenched with my perspiration. Usually, it gets all drenched before even my lesson starts, that's how warm the morning used to be.

Lessons as usual.. Human Anatomy drawing and more game making. I'll probably release my game someday. Haha.

Nothing much to type about for today..

Thanks for reading this short and pathetic post. Peace out.

May 14, 2010


Hi there.

Friday. The day to rejoice for the weekends. Phew, this week's been really tiring. In conjunction to the e-Gaming competition, there's ANOTHER competition coming up which involves games design. I really need to find serious people to make a team and learn all the modelling skills with commitment and heart. THIS IS SERIOUS BUSINESS! The second year students won the competition and everyone got a new XBOX360 Elite/Arcade as rewards! The e-Gaming competition is also SERIOUS BUSINESS! $600 for everyone! Can party to the max, man.

Other than that, nothing much really. Gonna keep myself very, very busy these few months and also, in hope of winning that XBOX360 and $600. Can't give myself too much false hope though, but at least, encourage myself haha.

Weekends.. Hmm. I probably will be doing nothing again. Exercise? Yeah, maybe. Gonna skip on the rope like crazy and do sit-ups, that way, I can reduce my belly size. Running everyday probably isn't going to help. A visit or two to the gym a week should be sufficient, don't wanna strain my muscles too much.. Schedule set! Woot.

Thanks for reading such a lame post, haha. Peace out.

May 12, 2010


Hi there.

I apologize for not updating for the past 2 days. No, it's nothing personal. I just didn't have much to update anyway.

Tomorrow, there will be a blood donation drive in my school. Now, I have a dilemma. I have paranoia against needles. I'm not afraid of the needle's pain, but the person handling it. I'll probably decide tomorrow whether to run for my 42km or go for a blood donation..

I'll probably be participating in an e-Gaming competition organized by Funan IT Mall in a game called Blackshot. Unfortunately, they do not have popular games like Call of Duty and Battlefield. Blackshot is just a suckered down budget version of Counter Strike.. Not to mention, the Singapore gaming community is one of the worst I ever seen. There's DoTA, of course and some other unappealing games. The top prize for Blackshot is $600, split among 5 members. Hopefully, this competition can used for my portfolio for admission to Polytechnic!

I can't fucking wait for WCG! I'll be attending it for sure! If there is one, this year..

Thanks for reading. Peace out.

May 9, 2010

Kinda pissed.

Hi there

Today was Mother's Day. I did not bought my mum a gift, but just wrote her a note. Oh well.
It wasn't my day. Everything was screwed up. I logged into my current MMORPG, Battle of the Immortals, fortified a pet and failed 10 times. I played Call of Duty - Modern Warfare 2 and lost 6 times, to a hacker. I played Battlefield - Bad Company 2 and lost 3 times due to dumb team mates. I played Persona 4 and died after a single hour run at the dungeon, did not save. After all that, I screamed silently. Go figure.

What a day really.. So I went down in the afternoon and just ran my ass off. >_>

Hopefully tomorrow's much better.

Happy Mother's Day!

Thanks for reading. Peace out.

May 8, 2010


Hi there.

It rained today, but it's still so warm! WHY?

Tomorrow's Mother's Day, WHY? I haven't bought my mother a gift yet.. I have no idea what to buy. Maybe I'll walk around in the nearby shopping malls.. Hopefully, something will catch my eye.

Nothing much today..

Thanks for reading this short post. Peace out.

May 7, 2010

In control.

Hi there.

I'm back from a 30 minute jog around my house. YEP. I'm getting to my regular schedule for slimming down. I need to get at least Silver for my NAPFA test, which is due in 3 weeks. It seems impossible though, still I'll try every means to perform at least 2 pull-ups, or 3? Gonna cut down on fried food from now on.

Today was a really warm day.. Everyday is warm.. Not to mention, my theory lesson today was conducted in a non air-conditioned room.. I'm pretty sure the room I used and the room next door are the only non air-conditioned rooms. Theory's pretty boring today. I was mostly staring into blank space and probably lamenting once again. After school, I went with a friend to his personal gym to of course, box my frustrations out. There's a million frustrations in my mind, but I could only take them out little by little.

Went home to take a bath and rushed to City Square Mall to meet up with some friends for dinner. Nothing much happened though. My friend was right, I really felt like a total stranger just now. Time really changes stuff, fast. I guess I can't increase my self-esteem when my self-esteem is already that low.. How to increase self-esteem.. Hmm. My Chinese sucked so hard, I still find it hard to communicate despite having tried to speak more Chinese. I'm always a little afraid that my Chinese would sound lousy in front of my ITE classmates.

I'm sure I have transformed into an emotional person. I'm trying hard to kick the silent habit, and try to be louder.. Man, John, stop dwelling in the past and be hyper! Yeah!

Thanks for reading. Peace out.

May 6, 2010

A blast from the past.

Hi there.

I had Sports and Wellness in the morning. I decided to work out in the gym with a friend, talking about his Muay Thai habits and some of my own. I felt stronger after the workout and slack a little after that.. The early morning was pretty gloomy. Then some game making lessons again. If you were wondering, I was making an arcade game which has an airplane shooting at enemies from a bird's eye perspective. The whole session was pretty fun and hilarious thanks to the partner beside me, haha.

After school, we had to attend some kind of Youth Olympic Games 100 pledges to support Singapore. The TV crew came, recorded clips of basketball and badminton training. During basketball, a classmate of mine was in it too and the most awesome part was when he was starting to shoot a ball, practically everyone cheered for him! I was happy for him too, although he jerked a little but I'm sure he's pumped, haha. It also made me recall unhappy stuff.. During Secondary school, I was a chairman in Secondary 2. When I was having my investiture, my class just clapped for me. I was staring at my class, smiling regardless. The other classes get the loudest cheers and they certainly looked happy.. Another time was my time as a Scout. I was receiving my Bronze service award as my first award in my whole life. All I get was basically forced cheers from my Scout mates.. My class didn't cheer for me at all.. Till that day onward, I lost my determination to actually earn awards for myself. I'll never forget it. I admit, I was pretty jealous today, but I had been jealous for just about my whole life.. I'm tired of being jealous already. So yeah, I'll just keep silent.

I also did some kind of YOG dance cheer.. It was pretty cheesy though, but kinda fun. I decided to drop the idea of joining badminton.. Badminton training is on Mondays and Fridays, but I have lessons on Monday. If I want to join something, I want to be fully dedicated, not like this man.. Once again, another chance at joining badminton has been blown. Not to mention, I need to join a competition as part of my portfolio for enrolling in Polytechnic in the future. Sigh. I also decided to drop the idea of purchasing XBOX360 parts, PSP and hoody, I'll just purchase a pair of headphones instead, since I'm low on money already.

Well, I'm going end here.

Thanks for reading. Peace out.

May 5, 2010

Just another warm day.

Hi there.

As the title suggests, today was ANOTHER warm day. It was showering during the late afternoons, but it doesn't change the temperature in any way! Whenever I'm inside the air-conditioned rooms, I feel so cold, despite being fat. I'm gonna have to purchase a jacket, probably a hoody for fashion purposes.. Otherwise, I'll get a chill.

Nothing much today.. Just some Photoshop lessons.

And when it rains,
Will you always find an escape?
Just running away,
From all of the ones who love you,
From everything.

Thanks for reading. Peace out.

May 4, 2010

I learnt a lot..

Hi there.

There were several talks conducted in my school today..

It seemed to that the people at ITE are really concerned with our future, having like 5 talks on success and anything relevant in 4 weeks. But compared to Secondary school talks, these talks really gave me the urge to work hard. We CAN actually look up to someone as an inspiration. There was a brass ensemble quintet performing for us in between the talks.. It felt really soothing to the ears, something you feel while eating at a posh restaurant, enjoying your food and listening to the wonderful jazz music. Haha, it's been a really long time since I ate at a posh restaurant.

I had a drawing lesson today, on human anatomy. We were supposed to draw human forms using guidelines and whatever. In the past, I drew weapons, monsters and even visual effects, but I can't draw a human right, haha! I'm also seeking help from a friend pretty soon.. I really want to make my own art, purchase a scanner and edit it with Photoshop or whatever.

So much to do man.. Fix my friend's XBOX360, purchase broadcasting hardware, purchase more of my favorite old games, learn drumming for once, learn Melbourne Shuffle and breakdancing (Yes, I'm dead serious..) and lose as much weight as possible in Fitness club. Apparently, I waited for the Badminton in-charges to inform me of my application status, it's been quite long already.. So maybe, I'll just stick to Fitness club.

That's all for today! I'm dead tired and I'm gonna crash in soon.

Thanks for reading. Peace out.

May 3, 2010

What to type..


Hi there.

It's a warm day, isn't it? I already felt the heat this morning, all the way till evening. Goodness gracious. It just doesn't rain at the most required moment. Sigh.

I was kinda shocked that hair IS still an issue in ITE MacPherson. I thought I could finally keep long hair, but no, it looks like I still have to wait 2 years or after National Service. Blame myself for not studying hard in Secondary school, then again, I wasn't THAT determined to do well anyway. Still, why is hair always an issue? People WILL eventually keep long hair anyway.. Zzz. I really can't wait for Polytechnic years.. I really want the busy schedules the students have and having my own laptop as well.. Sigh. *greenface*

There's nothing new today in school though. If I were to talk about ITE life everyday, you'll be bored as shit.

I'm bored, gonna play some games.

Thanks for reading. Peace out.

May 2, 2010

If I'm sick, would you please give a damn?

Hi there.

Haha.. I've been ill for a week. First, I had a soar throat which evolved into dry coughs. Then it evolved into diarrhea and I had liquid stools yesterday. Not to mention, my muscle pain from the previous training really added to the pain. Just yesterday, I was chatting with an old friend of mine, who really needs to find a new meaning to, "show care and concern".

If your friend in MSN chats with you and said that he/she is ill, what would you say?

"Get well!", "What illnesses are you having?", "Oh dear, are you alright"? or the rarely used one, "You need me to accompany you to the doctor?".

No. He said..

"Dude, I had worser illnesses than what you're having now, suck it up man.".

Of course, being the "good" friend that I am, I just let him have his "drill instructor" way. Seriously man, it's not boot camp, why is he being all cold about it? Asking me to "suck it up man" isn't gonna make me feel any good then it is already. I had like 6 liquid stools yesterday and he asked me to suck it up. Really.. Don't apply this stupid logic about, "I had worser whatever..". It's as good as saying..

"Oh your fish died? My fish died too. Just suck it up man."

Not everyone is the same as you. You can't expect everyone to feel the same way as you.

If I'm sick, would you please.. at least, give a damn?

A simple, "Get well soon" does wonders, if you have no darn idea.


Thanks for reading. Peace out.

May 1, 2010

New month.

Hi there..

Well, if it isn't May. The month before a long holiday, before examinations and of many celebrations. So far, April's been a good month. I loved every moment during school, learned new things and made new friends (Or maybe, new acquaintances), not to mention, more gaming friends. I can see my Steam friends list piling up already!

Making friends was kinda hard. I had to be the one to initiate conversations and then they will start talking. Of course, those good looking people will get all the good stuff. Maybe being nice wasn't a good plan anyway. People love bad people, those who worship Satan, those who worship the terrorists, I'm exaggerating.. I kept thinking about myself for these past few days. I'm even drifting away from my Polytechnic friends further and further away, and maybe to the point that we'll be total strangers. It's part and parcel of life, I know, but it's kinda hard to get used to it.

Although life in ITE was great, life at home wasn't any better. I came home everyday, switched on my computer and just play games. It was just lifeless. Sure, I have a passion for gaming but I can't possibly dedicate my life to gaming. I wished, for the past 3 weeks, you know, to have some friends message me about their life in Polytechnic and of course, go out for a lunch or walk. Only then I found out, they have rather busy schedules and really have no time. Haha, how stupid am I? LMAO.

Maybe my life's gonna stay this way for the next 2 years, and till then, I'll decide whether I'm going to Polytechnic or service National Service.

I hope May's gonna be a good month, although I'm looking forward to the June holidays.

Thanks for reading. Peace out.

April 29, 2010

I really had fun.

Hi there.

Today was really interesting.. We made a 2D game, named Pong (It's sorta like a tennis game from a bird's eye perspective). It wasn't easy at all, I swear. It's something a person can't make without guidance or knowledge. We took 3 hours just to make a Pong game. But the whole lessons was really fun, be it laughing at someone's funny movements or the lecturer's funny gestures. Haha. Surprisingly, the Pong game was fun. Maybe because it's your own work, so it's kinda like satisfaction I guess.. Probably, in the future, making 3D games will definitely be harder. Still, we had fun!

Since the month of April is ending, I decided to get a new desktop look! I messed with a little Photoshop and some texts. It also has a new Rainmeter interface. It can be improved further..

I also wanted to make it look like a Macbook, with the cluttered dock. Haha.

Ugh.. Tomorrow's presentation day, gonna be boring as hell.

Thanks for reading. Peace out.

April 27, 2010

First careless mistake of the year.

Hi there.

I had more Photoshop lessons today.. Today, it's about making cars look older. It's pretty simple, but I really wanted to go in depth.. Too bad, I do not have Photoshop at home. I downloaded CS4 from a torrent website recently, but it's really annoying. It asks for your serial key every time you open Photoshop. Maybe it wasn't properly cracked.. Purchasing Photoshop is definitely out of the question, it costs a whooping $600~!

I committed my first mistake of the year. I forgot to remove my thumb drive from the computer I used during Photoshop class. If nobody stole it today or tomorrow, I'd be lucky. Anyway, there isn't much important documents in it, just a few horror videos and a death "note" Readme file in it to whoever reads it. It was for fun, and it'd probably scare the crap out of whoever stole it, HAHA. I was planning to purchase a thumb drive anyway, since this thumb drive I used was a few years old.

So there's two kinds of Photoshop lessons, one on Practical and one on Theory. I had Photoshop theory lessons for 4 hours straight. It was tiring. The class watched two movies and supposedly, we were to analyse how producers created the movie. Well, for one, it's mostly common sense. I watched Wall-E and some giant robot and a kid movie, can't remember the name.

That's about it today..

Thanks for reading. Peace out.

April 26, 2010

The daily life.

Hi there.

So I got a new look, beard and mustache clean shaved and the natural spiked hair, meaning I don't have to blow my hair, messing up my hair with hair wax and doing it wrong. I went to school today and learned more about Photoshop again. I'm downloading a pirated version of Photoshop CS4 and gonna train myself at home as well. I got Zul's guaranteed help in hand drawing hopefully and I WILL BE ABLE TO MAKE MY OWN ART! Sweeeeet.

Instead of having lessons after lunch, I had two consecutive talks. One on Stress Management and another on Perseverance. I was wondering whether Polytechnic students have these kind of talks, because it felt very Secondary-ish. One thing ironic about today was that I'm supposed to have lessons till 5.30pm but when both talks ended, I was allowed to go home already. By then, it was around 3.30pm. I was also supposed to meet a friend at 6pm. Initially, I planned today to be smooth-sailing, after lessons - head to Orchard ION - then chat a little - then return home, and turns out to be wasting more transport fare than usual. What's so ironic? I was the only person who was unhappy about the early dismissal. What a bad coincidence.. Of course, if early dismissal happened on other days, I would be elated like hell..

Roses are red,
Violets are black,
Why is your chest as flat as your back?

Thanks for reading. Peace out.

April 24, 2010


I need a new cabinet.. for gaming, don't you think?

April 22, 2010

Rain moar.

Hi there.

Alright.. I had a tiring day at school. First off, I had my first Sports & Wellness lesson, which is equivalent to Physical Education (PE) anyway. It seemed to me that there is no Trim & Fit (TAF) club currently.. Maybe in the future I suppose? I filled in my application for joining the Fitness club and signed up for an objective to finish 42km in 6 months, to earn that awesome T-shirt. Wow.. 42km in 6 months sounds easy, but it's kinda hard right?

I had my first group work and it was pretty smooth.. I don't know all of my group members but they all worked willingly and that's most important right? We passed the submission time, but we still continued without panicking. The girl in my group voluntarily asked to be a presenter. In the past, the presenter's role is thrown around and people rejecting it every time. I'm really surprised.. We managed to finish about 80% of the work, and decided to resume tomorrow.

I noticed that some girls in my class go for good looking men. That pretty much sums up my ITE life already. And one question.. For example, I'm 19 years old now. Can I still continue to advance into Polytechnic after I graduated from ITE, as long as I'm pursuing full-time studies and I can defer my National Service enrollment for as long as I like? I need answers!

Thanks for reading. Peace out.

April 21, 2010

Really tired. Dead tired.

Hi there..

Sorry, I'll not be able to update tonight because I'm dead tired. During this morning, whoever took the North East Line MRT should know. There was a technical fault and the commuters were not informed early. I stood all morning, tired and waited for 30 minutes. Then, I decided to hail for a taxi but it was filled with people hailing for one too.. So I took a short 5 minutes walk further from the station and finally got into one.. What a terrible day..

I'll be sleeping now.

Thanks for reading. Peace out.

April 20, 2010


Hi there.

Well.. It's a pretty warm day, isn't it? My lecture today was filled with watching different animated films and then the lecturer goes in-depth with every film. I have to admit, the lecturer's either from China or Japan, his English is just horrible, but I have to add props to his hardwork and stress easily seen by his perspired shirt. I went home with a new friend, who only stays one stop away from me and we talked pretty much about dirty stuff. Haha!

I was talking to a friend just now regarding his plan to initiate a relationship. Certain times, it made me reminisce some of my good memories which are long gone. I didn't have anyone to talk about it, but at least some tried to cheer me up. Just remember.. Love have no boundaries. A man without confidence is as good as nothing. Once you catch her, cling onto her and never let her go [Of course give some privacy lah, LMAO]. What an interesting night I had.

Well. I'm done tonight and I'm gonna head to sleep.

Thanks for reading. Peace out.

April 19, 2010

It had to happen at the wrong time..

Hi there.

I apologize for not updating during the weekend. Well, because there was nothing to blog about! There was.. Actually.. But I posted it on my gaming blog. I received an broken XBOX360 from a friend and that if I fix it, I would be able to use it for quite a while. Check out my gaming blog at here.

The Circle Line was released last Saturday and it's my first time using it today. I have to say, I'm loving it. It's so convenient! I took less than an hour to reach home, compared to the hour and a half previously. Those who are heading into Dhoby Ghaut at the late morning, say around 8am+.. Beware, the train will be packed almost forever. My friend missed 7 trains in the morning, because nobody wanted to ride on the Circle Line. Probably because they're scared something bad might happen I presume.. So far, no accidents, the Circle Line stations looks way awesome than the others. So far, so good.

Today at school, I learned about Photoshop again. This time, it was about using the Clone Stamp Tool, which I used before during Secondary 2 art lessons. I took the time to recap everything about it and managed to do a decent job of renewing an old photograph. Next, I had to do a game review of a game that I liked. It was tough but I chose Metal Gear Solid 2 - Sons of Liberty, since I finished the game already. After that, had to do some research on XBOX360. Thank goodness for my friend's XBOX360.. Haha.

That's about it..

Thanks for reading. Peace out.

April 16, 2010

Photoshop is seriously tough.

Hi there.

Today was short, and I had four periods of Games Design Principles.. Wow, you must be like, "What the fuck is that?". If you're a gamer, you should know stuff like gameplay, audio, storyline and stuff like that. It's like that, and much more in-depth. I noticed that my lecturer loves talking about his life.. Sometimes it's funny, and sometimes it's not. Not to mention, I made another friend today and he's just way awesome. Nothing rocks better than sharing the same mind and hobbies. I'm gonna try out Reallife@ITE, which allows me to take a job and also get salary for it. Hopefully it sticks to my busy schedule, which includes heavy Photoshop training, Badminton training and of course, honing my drawing skills.. My current skills are so D&T..

Photoshop is seriously tough to master.. I have a huge ass pile of notes to refer. Still, wouldn't it be better if I had Photoshop at my own computer? Anyone has a spare copy or is willing to loan me the Photoshop disc for 2 years? (Haha!).

I'm done for today. I wanted to sleep.. But I decided to play some games first.

Thanks for reading. Peace out.

April 15, 2010

Final day of orientation.

Hai thur.

Alright. So today was my final day of orientation. We had a talk in MPH (Multi-Purpose Hall, or just Hall in short) about the various CCAs offered in College Central. Since ITE MacPherson is the main hub for College Central, the other Central Campus had to visit our school for CCA orientation. Pretty cool though, made me feel proud about MacPherson. I wanted to wait for Mun Tat to arrive, who's currently in ITE Tampines, but he took too darn long. After I picked my CCA, I went home.

I picked badminton. What do you expect? Haha. At least, I'll prolly lose some weight before I enter NS after my graduation. I'm kinda liking my badminton mates already, haha. Everything just seems too good to be true. Or probably I haven't had good things happening to my life in the past. Now, I have to save money for badminton rackets.. Ugh. My 6 years old racket is too rusty and the handle felt damp and moldy. Tomorrow, a cousin of mine is offering me a freelance at some business stuff of some sort. Good money earning opportunity I guess.

Life's been pretty good lately.. But I'm pretty sure the good things will end anyway. Hmmm.. Fuck you, pessimism! Life's great!

Thanks for reading. Peace out.

April 14, 2010

666th post.

Hi there.

It's my 666th post. What does 666 mean? Google it, you dimwits. Hoho.

I had afternoon school today and it was just awesome. I made 7 new friends in a row. Some of them are RTS lovers, some love multiplayer FPS and some MMORPGs crazies. I learned basic Photoshop skills and theory on Gaming Art Styles. Wow, the last time I used a Photoshop application was when Photoshop was still a baby. Now it's like Adobe Photoshop CS3 Extended. Wow damn. What a long name.. The lecturer then showed us a video of XBOX360's Project Natal. You know, the stuff that lets you game without a controller? It just looks weird.. I'll be driving a car without a handle, mowing a field which looks as if I'm shoving someone's ass. All in all, it's just weird..

You'll never gonna believe what happened in the MRT while heading home. I was surrounded by 6 hot ladies, some office ladies and some schoolgirls. Holy cow man. There's this schoolgirl who fell towards me because the train moved way too fast and hit me so hard, using me as a shield. Oh my goodness. That moment, seriously, I literally froze. She thanked me and then smiled at me. You know, I WAS TRYING SO DAMN HARD NOT TO SCREAM IN UTMOST JOY. Luckily she got off, but fuck, how I wish we got off the same station, I would've asked her for the number. But I'd prolly be too nervous.. UGHHHHHHHHHH.

Alright. I'm done for today.

Thanks for reading. Peace out.

April 13, 2010

Interestingly short day.

Hi there.

I had an interesting, short day in school today. There was a talk, explaining the role of the student council in the school, a talk on self-esteem and after that, my class advisor went through some scholarships and awards requirements. I definitely do not want to join the student council because I'll be in ITE for only 2 years. This council might probably be for those who are studying in ITE for at least 4 years (Nitec + Higher Nitec). What pretty much summed up the day, being "interesting" was the self-esteem talk by the school's own student councilor in-charge.

I really loved how we can relax freely in the auditorium unlike in Secondary school.. Most probably because we're being treated as adults already. Surprisingly, it was really quiet! The April 2010 intake gave the talker their fullest attention and clapped whenever necessary. I was really amazed, never expected it. Putting that aside, the talk itself was very well executed. I'm pretty sure I lacked self-esteem which reminded me of Secondary school.. During O levels, there wasn't much positivity. Most of the people were saying how they'll fail this and that.. Spreading the disease around like some epidemic. I just realized that I had the word, "FAIL" in my mind constantly and eventually, became paranoid. I was also told that I should forget the past and forgive. Personally, I will forget whatever happened, but if the person didn't change, I will not forgive.

I found a new inspiration. Abraham Lincoln, thanks to the talk. He failed numerous times, but he never gave up. Hopefully the inspiration will get me through ITE, then NS, then Polytechnic and finally, overseas universities (Cus Singapore is only a gaming distributor, not a gaming hub). This list shows his failures and successes.

  • 1831 - Lost his job
  • 1832 - Defeated in run for Illinois State Legislature
  • 1833 - Failed in business
  • 1834 - Elected to Illinois State Legislature (success)
  • 1835 - Sweetheart died
  • 1836 - Had nervous breakdown
  • 1838 - Defeated in run for Illinois House Speaker
  • 1843 - Defeated in run for nomination for U.S. Congress
  • 1846 - Elected to Congress (success)
  • 1848 - Lost re-nomination
  • 1849 - Rejected for land officer position
  • 1854 - Defeated in run for U.S. Senate
  • 1856 - Defeated in run for nomination for Vice President
  • 1858 - Again defeated in run for U.S. Senate
  • 1860 - Elected President (success)

Ultimately, I became more confident. I made some interactions with my classmates. The fact we shared the same mind, makes it so much easier. I'm.. kinda liking this ITE life, HONESTLY. Haha. Not to mention, my school starts at 2pm tomorrow. Whew!

"The best way to deal with a bully is just to walk away. Do NOT feed the troll" - Yours truly

Thanks for reading. Peace out.

April 12, 2010

The worst has yet to come.. Maybe?

Hi there.

I just had the first orientation day at school. You know, the usual stuff, icebreakers, mini-games, to build teamwork. Also, it was awesome that the computer lab is my classroom! There's a games testing room where there are tons of XBOX360s and big ass desktop monitor. Very awesome.

My class is probably the most quiet amongst all. There isn't those group of youngsters who always find the need to yell out of the blue. Of course, I was expecting a sudden yell from anyone.. It did happened anyway, not surprising at all.

Not to mention, it was pretty warm day. In the morning, already I'm perspiring all over. In the afternoon, it was WORSE! I went home, with my Polo-T all drenched. Gosh.

My orientation lasts for 3 days.. After that, it's down to business!

Thanks for reading. Peace out.

April 11, 2010

Goodbye, beloved holidays.

Hi there.

Yeah. It's the last day of my holidays. I'll be officially starting school tomorrow, without a uniform.. Just great. I wonder what are people gonna think when they see me in school, not wearing the ITE uniform. Oh well. Bad start I guess. So back to today, I did all the stuff I loved doing, be it playing games, modifying games and of course, once again, pimping up my desktop. Here's the result..

Olivia Wilde + Rainmeter.

Before you go all, "Woah John, you dig that?", like of course I dig that, I would dig that anytime. There's nothing wrong in liking girls or if you have a different opinion on girls, I have nothing to say really.. The only bad thing you do to girls is betray them by cohabiting with multiple girls. That's not faithful for all you hungry perverts. Right now, I'm still single, so I still have the freedom to look at ass! *grins*

But seriously, what do you think of my new desktop? I love it. I could imagine everyday, coming back from school, switching on my computer and looking at Olivia's sexy pose in front of my eyes. Hell yeah.

I heard something from my maid which I found to be really unbelievable. There's this woman who was pronounced dead 3 days ago. Sadly, the killer was still on the loose and the woman could not reveal the killer obviously. Then after 3 days, she was alive again! She could not remember anything personal at all, but she remembered what happened to her before she died. As a result, the killer was caught by the police. It's definitely a miracle but I found it unbelievable. 2 doctors pronounced her dead and then after 3 days, she's alive again? That's some creepy shit. Unless the doctors were frauds or the dead woman was acting, there's no way a dead person could revive him/herself. When I told my maid, "Was it an act?", she argued. She said that God helped her or something. I decided to stop the conversation before it gets all nasty. I'm not disrespecting the religion or anything, I just find it hard to believe that someone can get revived at the will of God. My question is.. Can a dead person just revive him/herself all of a sudden?

Last few days, I also asked my maid, "Who came first, the male or the female?". Since babies came out of the female body, wouldn't it be logical that the female was the first human on Earth? Then my maid told me it was man named Adam. God created Adam or something. Then God found out that Adam was very lonely so God created Eve for him. As weird as it sounds, I partially believed it. And then there's the Adam and Eve that we all know of, maybe they were the first pair to discover the art of sexual intercourse as well, since they're the first couple on Earth, right? So much questions, so little time. Haha.

This is my last holiday post for 2009/2010. From tomorrow, you might read on my life in ITE. It's your chance to experience ITE from WORDS! Haha. Hopefully I'll manage to make you feel like an ITE student and of course, remove the negative stereotypes from your brain too.

Thanks for reading. Peace out.

April 8, 2010

It's getting lesser..

Hi there.

I had a rather busy afternoon today.. Thank goodness it was raining in the early morning. I played with the water gun of some sort and sprayed all the moss and fungi out of the air-conditioner tray. It was fun and I hoped it destroyed all of the mosquitoes' breeding habitats. So far, I only found one mosquito but it was so annoying. Still, at least the plague is getting lesser. Those insects loved to stuff their needles into my legs for no reason. Are mosquitoes attracted to drumsticks? *roll eyes*

For some reason, I went on to Google and searched for ITE. Several ITE threads came up and totally made me more confident. At least for now, I still can wear my ITE uniform with pride regardless of what people think. For those ITE students who still feel low about themselves, trying searching for ITE on Google and read some of the forums shown. Hopefully it might make you feel better about yourself! Don't give up yo!

My current wallpaper. :D

Thanks for reading. Peace out.

Irritating needles.

Hi there.

I.. did not notice that I had not blogged for 4 days! Wow. All these gaming is bringing my mind to another world! I have been playing lots of arcade games lately. I played Pac-Man Championship Edition on the XBOX360 at my friend's house and it was so awesome! Retro awesomeness. Once again, I'm off to search for sites which provides XBOX360 giveaways. An online friend of mine recommended me this site. He won several prizes from the site, including a PSP. Now, I don't know what to do. Should I earn points to earn that XBOX360 Elite or find a job quickly to purchase it?

Look at this.

Apparently, it cost 2700 PTZ. I only have 4 PTZ so far.

To earn PTZ, you need to fully watch videos and enter captchas to earn your points or invite friends. I'm in a dilemma. It would take so long to earn 2700 PTZ.. Sigh, there's so much goodies I want but not enough money. I really wish I could earn an XBOX360 right off the bat! Hot damn. In my dreams! Anyway, if you're interested in using the site, do comment! Lockerz is only a member-invite only site. Comment and I'll invite you if you want.

Talk about today.. Weather forecasts are just bullcrap. It was supposed to rain today but it was just scorching hot in the afternoon. Damn, living at the top floor sucked balls. Not to mention, fucking mosquitoes everywhere. I'm forced to close the windows around my flat and there's little ventilation. I kept perspiring and mosquitoes seemed to love poking their dicks into wet skin. I don't know why air-conditioners need to have a tray beneath it! After a rain, the tray collects water and allows mosquitoes to breed.

3 days ago, a mosquito inspector came into my house. You know what all he does? He went into the kitchen, looked everywhere then into the toilet. After that, he's gone in a swift. WHAT THE FUCK? Does this mean that ONLY kitchens CAN breed mosquitoes but not in other rooms? These inspectors really need to spread out.. Everywhere with water is a possible habitat for mosquitoes! In the past, inspectors were really strict. They searched for stagnant water sources in the house and gave advises. This inspector just comes in, ya-dah ya-dah, okay no mosquitoes! *zhao*

I worry for the house, because I cleared every stagnant water sources, sprayed some insecticide in every room and I'm still seeing these irritating needles. I always feel paranoid around them because you'll never know which mosquito gives the dengue fever. I got bitten thrice already, but thank goodness I'm still in one piece.

Dai, mosquitters, dai!

Thanks for reading. Peace out.

April 4, 2010

All at once.

Hi there.

I woke up this morning with a new friend, a sore throat. Gosh, I can't even speak properly because I have 3 mouth ulcers and man, these ulcers are not giving me an easy time! Every single time the ulcer get touched, it hurts so bad that it gave me a splitting headache! Since it rained so much the past few days, mosquitoes are breeding outside my flat, damn. Wow, I'm loving all of it.

Oh well. My school is starting in a week's time. I still have not gotten my uniform (What is taking them so darn long to call me?). I think I might pay a visit to the school again.. For this week, I'm gonna make the most of my time before school starts. I'll see..

Thanks for reading. Peace out.

April 2, 2010


Hi there.

When I was roaming through the forum in a General section, I stumbled upon this thread and found it rather disturbing and sad.

Do read the article here.

To sum it up, it was a schoolgirl who committed suicide because she was bullied by her own classmates. The classmates abused her in the school library, the lunchroom and the hallways and threw a canned drink at her as she walked home. Just thinking of the bullies makes me sick. What the hell were they thinking? I can't imagine how her parents would feel after bringing her up for years and only to pass away from a stupid, mindless bullying ploy. Those 6 bullies shall get their taste of the medicine.

Some of you may think she's from Ireland and we're from Singapore, there's a difference so why care about it at all? Yes, there's a difference. Some people can tolerate bullying but some cannot. We're all humans with emotions, regardless of where we're from. I really hope something like this doesn't happen in Singapore, because there are bullies around too. I hope she'll rest in peace and get her revenge from above.

Bottomline is.. Think before you do something stupid which might affect you.

Thanks for reading. Peace out.

April 1, 2010

Why is life so cruel to me?

Hi there.

This afternoon, I was watching some Youtube videos until I decided to revisit the Bioware forums. On top of the Bioware forums, there was a bazaar notice which will start on the 6th of April. There were well over 400+ prizes, each of it were so tempting! One of the prizes caught my eyes. It was a Mass Effect special edition XBOX360! A fully skinned XBOX360 with the Mass Effect theme! I was so hyped! I went to check on my auction tokens and I had over 4000+ tokens. I never felt so excited in my life.. I checked the rules and of course, the damn auction is ONLY AVAILABLE IN THE UNITED STATES! Literally, my expression was like, "WAH?!". Why is life so cruel to me? Another incident was also for a free XBOX360 Elite.. It was a contest to find missing letters to a word. I worked so damn hard, finding the missing letters. After I found the word, a guy beat me to it by a minute! I was utterly speechless.

I have never won a lucky draw, a contest or anything pertaining to expensive giveaways. I entered in draws for my whole life, never once I won something. During my graduation night, I was so eager to win something, at least an iPod or something. Well, you guessed right, I never won a single thing. Even in MMORPG.com, there was always a lucky draw going on and the prizes were mostly laptops, video cards and consoles, and I never won once! SIGH SIGH SIGH!

Of course, I have to be compassionate.. There are people who never won once in their life as well. I guess I'll get my chance one day. Hmm.

Oh yeah, I have your sextape here!

And the new Youtube layout sucked! Don't you think? I really hope it's just an April Fools' joke..

Thanks for reading. Peace out.

March 31, 2010

March is ending!

Hi there.

Well, March is ending in a few hours. Personally, March was so dull. Nothing interesting at all except this month have one of the most game releases. It rained almost every single day, and of course, sleeping during the bad weather was very comfortable! School's starting soon too. Whatever lies ahead of me, I'll dodge. Life in ITE might be very bad according to some people, but I'm sure I can find a shiny bright light within the midst of darkness. Probably a girl? Haha! Who knows.. Of course I would wish hard for that to happen.

I'm aiming to purchase an XBOX360 and the game, Rock Band 2 for myself. I just want to vent my anger on something difficult and stressful. Rhythm games are definitely for me! No more punching of walls and screaming at beaches. I might even invite people to have hours worth of drumming, strumming and singing! Haha, that would be the life. I really like to be a drummer some day, and of course receive training somehow. I don't want my life to be overwhelmed with purely games. Music and games seemed like a decent combination, isn't it? Haha!

Even ITE have CCAs, I wonder if Polytechnics have those as well. Sigh. I only have myself to blame for this outcome. I wasn't determined enough to study hard! Oh well, just have to suck it up once again. I can't figure out what CCA I wanted to join.. I wished there was drumming club or something. I definitely do not want to join a band. There's badminton too.. Hmm. Tough choices.. I'll see.

By the way, if you guys are looking for a comment button, it's on top of this post. The toothed hole with the number in it, that's the button. I'm begging you guys to comment, it keeps me and my blog alive. Do comment once in a while! The reactions too!

Thanks for reading. Peace out.

March 30, 2010

Sweet updates.

Hi there.

As you noticed, there's a huge change on this blog. The blandness is gone, and now, it comes with a little goodness. First of all, there's a search button on the top. No, it isn't a Google search, but it searches within my blog! Just type a word and you'll find all posts related to the word. Pretty nifty eh? Second, there's a RSS Feed subscriber button. Use it if you want to subscribe (Which I doubt many would) to my feeds aka posts or if you use Blogger's widget, "Blogroll". Lastly, if you don't want to comment, there's a reaction bar which shows the different reactions you can give to the post. It's sorta like a Like button in Facebook, just that there's a negative option.

That's just about it. Please visit my collaborated gaming blog with Erin on www.gamingwhileraining.blogspot.com.

Thanks for reading. Peace out.

March 28, 2010

A sad loss.

Hi there.

NO. No human died. Erin's laptop died! This is what you get for ignoring the instructions. Great, now I have to loan her my crappy desktop. Her hard-drive supposedly DAMAGED the graphic card, which ended up in stock colors appearing in the screen. It was a two-year old laptop, which its warranty ended ages ago. What a pity though.. Its integrated video card even supports World of Warcraft at Medium to High settings. Her hard-drive was SO CLUTTERED MAN! When I ran Diskeeper on her laptop, it was full of reds! It was 70% fragmented! Damn, take good care of your hard-drives, laptop owners.. Once it's gone, it's gone forever. Defrag the hard-drive every week to ensure its longevity. HARD DRIVES AIN'T CHEAP!

Spring-cleaning tomorrow.. Gonna be a hard one.

That's about it today.

Thanks for reading. Peace out.

March 27, 2010

Do you really feel a need to..

Hi there. Do note that if you have not read yesterday's post, it's at the bottom of this post.

As the title suggests.. Do you really feel a need to..


Yep. That. A few days ago, I was disturbed at my home by, probably, a class from a particular school, a class of boys. I didn't see any girls, so I'm assuming it's a boys' school. At 2pm in the afternoon, this class of boys started shouting and screaming in the neighborhood. When I was at the window, I wasn't the only one affected. About 80% of the neighborhood were at their windows, wondering what in the blue hell was going on. The loud and annoying noises lasted for 15 minutes, until a teacher eventually came and reprimanded. She sounded like someone who gets bullied every single time. She just screamed, "Shut up!" continuously, like that's going shut them up. It looked like they were going for CIP or something, because they were all carrying some plastic bags.

Back on topic. Do you really find a need to scream and shout in public?

Well, I found a common trait in people who loved to scream and shout. They do this when they're with their group of friends. Yes. When the person is with his friends, his ego get increased by a fuckload and his sense of right or wrong goes down to 0. When nobody is with him, his ego drains rapidly and eventually look retarded. Funny yet ironic.

All you need is backup and you can shoot your ego to as high as 1000 feet.

That's about it for today.

Thanks for reading. Peace out bitches.

March 26, 2010

Bucket of tears.

Hi there.

It wasn't a really good start this morning. I woke up scratching the hell out of my right leg, and found out that it felt bulgy all over. It was probably attacked by several mosquitoes.. Damn, no wonder, it rained so much for the past few days. Do mosquitoes breed that FAST? I need to research..

..and today, I resigned. Gonna start finding one soon straight after my ITE course starts. I'm just gonna force myself to look on a bright side to ITE..

So, you might be thinking. Why is my post title named, "Bucket of tears"?

As a man, I strongly admit, I cried a lot at the last few episodes of Cruel Temptations. To think that I forcefully detested Aeri and Gyo-bin since the beginning, and now I felt nothing but sympathy and respect for their decisions. It was WEIRD how they suddenly felt remorse and a need to repent just right at the end. To be frank, I felt that all these sudden personalities are forced together in a few episodes. Aeri, Gyo-bin and especially So-hee all changed personas way too quickly. Nevertheless, it was rather awesome for antagonists to be repentant after ALL they did and I loved how all they all lament on their past while repenting.

Mediacorp's torturing me for dragging the final two episodes all the way to Monday. Damn it. But hell, I must purchase a Cruel Temptation DVD.. Kudos to the makers of this drama series. If you have not watched this series yet, oh boy, you only have yourself to blame.

That's about it.

Oh my gaming blog -> www.blitheeegaming.blogspot.com is deleted. I started a new gaming blog with Erin. It's still in development but do support it when it's up. The link is..


Thanks for reading. Peace out bitches.

March 25, 2010

Just another typical post.

Hi there.

No updates for today.. Except that, the internet is being gay on me. Seriously Starhub.

A horror/humor video!


That's about it.

Thanks for reading. Peace out bitches.

March 24, 2010

I quit!

Hi there.

I'm gonna quit my job this week, since school's starting in a few weeks time and the shop's getting a new helper soon. Working was fun, tiring and satisfying. Sharing gaming tips and opinions never been this fun. Anyway, I'm watching American Idol right now.. So to whom is concerned, here's my predictions for the NEXT American Idol..

Next Female Idol would be..

Siobhan Magnus!

Pretty despite imperfect teeth, energetic and with strong vocals, this girl have all the makings of a rockstar and an idol! Seriously, Siobhan is giving me a Hayley Williams vibe. So if the next American Idol is a female, it would have to be Siobhan! Btw, her name's pronounced as Sher-von, not Sio-bun. [Sounds like a Hokkien verse..]

Next Male Idol would be..

Andrew Garcia!

He's part of the YouTube family, and he have an account which features all his talent through cover songs, duets and more. He's done of the best Michael Jackson medleys with his duet partner, Kathy Nguyen, in my opinion. But so far, he isn't performing well.. With Big Mike outshining him every performance, though I feel that Big Mike might be the next Reuben Studdart who isn't popular at all. Still, keep working hard Andrew!

*crosses fingers*
Both contestants shall enter the finals!

That's about it! And damn, I still haven't received my ITE uniform. *shrugs*

Thanks for reading. Peace out bitches.

March 23, 2010

He's digusting.

Call of Cthulhu Screenshots. Just look at what he's saying!

Rats? Tasty? EWW.

Disturbing game indeed. The game isn't scary.. But the atmosphere is so creepy.

Anyway, hi there.

It was an awesome day. It rained. YEP! But when it's raining, we should be sleeping, NOT WORKING! Argh. Working on a rainy day, it sucks. Playing games as usual. And finding a new wallpaper for my current obsession.


Yes, Battlefield Bad Company 2. The game I played for 50 hours straight. It's so addictive. Limited Editions are still in stock, so get them while their hot!

I need to make an announcement. *why so serious?*

Nah, it's nothing serious. It's not harmful to my blog either. Just new updates. If you noticed, my tagboard ONCE AGAIN disappeared. No, it didn't ran away on its own. I took it out. I figured that most of my readers wouldn't tag it at all. All I see is two of my friends tagging over and over. It seemed really awkward though. So instead, compile a whole comment regarding my post and just post it then! It'll be the last time, so you won't be seeing another tagboard anymore.

In addition, I have a favorite blogs list on the left. I'll be adding blogs that I love to read. Of course, I won't be adding those who updates within a large time gap. Most of it will be gaming blogs, since I love it very much. Do check out www.thingsweforget.blogspot.com. It's done by a Singaporean and I love it. It's simple, yet amazing at the same time. Do check it out, and maybe carry out a treasure hunt by yourself!

That's about it for today.

Thanks for reading. Peace out bitches.

March 22, 2010


Hi there.

My current legit games, including Swee Hong's Diablo 2 [It's here anytime, so get it if you want]

I know I'm on hiatus for a long time. I've been trying to get myself together for these few months on my own. Nobody really helped though, since everyone were busy with stuff. In order to get myself back, I have TO BE myself. So, I played games almost forever. After getting back from work, I just start playing immediately. It's good that my workplace have a gaming display where I can play for people etc, but playing the same game for umpteen hours doesn't cut it. For a month, my head's overflowed with gaming. Gaming podcasts, gaming news, gaming stuff and everything else, gaming.

Long story short, I was unable to accept that I failed the O levels [Though I looked like I already accepted it]. I studied everyday, cranked my brain many times but I still can't squeeze everything into my head. Call me dumb, call me stupid but I did my best. I even ceased gaming for a month. Now, I was able to accept it and actually look on the bright side of me entering ITE [But during the ITE orientation, I met my first problem. No uniform sizes are suitable for me. Fucked up much?]. I'm immune to those who criticized and looked down on me, because I believe in karma. I'm not gonna start. I'm finally, gonna attend ITE with a clear mind, a clear goal and a new life regardless of obstacles. I was informed that I can take my O level certificate. Honestly, to me, it's worth nothing but trash. If I can get a job with those kind of qualifications, I'll do the death dance.

For a whole month, I've been sitting on my ass at work and at home. I did make some friends while working, but only acquainted. When the March holidays started, I wanted a sleepover gaming night with a group of friends. Initially, most of them agreed. At the final minute, some of them did not want to come and eventually left me and my friend to settle the problem. The feeling is easy to describe; I wanted to take a sledgehammer and smash a fucking brick wall. I felt betrayed and it was the past all over again. What can I do?

Some of you maybe thinking that I'm being dramatic and whatever. But this is MY blog, I rant when I want to, I celebrate when I want to and there's not a damn thing you can do about it.

During this month, I learned many things. From games, from my seniors at work, from the skies and from the internet v-loggers. I became more fierce in my reply in forums and towards people, because a good friend told me, "You FUCK John, John FUCKS you.". Thanks Erin. I was too soft on myself and to other people. Honestly, I love my new personality. I feel awesome and people think twice before verbally abusing me. Thank goodness.

That's about it. It's a complete summary of my hiatus.

Thanks for reading. Peace out, bitches.

March 12, 2010

I wanna scream.

Dead By April - Promise Me (Album Version)

I just wanna scream! Gonna update soon.. So stay tuned.


February 28, 2010

Make choices and never look back.

Hi there.

I had fun yesterday. I went to a BBQ organized by my former teacher and loved it. It was really hotter than the usual BBQs I been to, but it was tolerable. The only thing I hated was the timing. It really make me felt that punctuality is to be taken for granted. But maybe some of them had something on.. I'm just saying..

After eating, I decided to play some LAN games with my friends, since it's been months. It seems they found a new LAN hangout. The place was pretty nice, the counter guy looks promising (Unlike the one at Cyrus) and polite. The computers were well-built, but most CPU have heavily fragmented hard drives, which dramatically increases the loading time of games and the occurrence of crashes . I loved the Logitech mouse, compared to the worn out Razers at my former LAN hangout. I was told to play DotA with them, but I hate the game with a passion.

Why I hate DotA?
1. You can never have friendly matches
You'll never hear phrases like, "Nice shot!", "Aw dang, you broke my killstreak!" and "Good game guys!". The last time I heard these phrases was when DotA was first released as an ordinary map, and I played with some of my friends. As DotA evolved, more screaming takes place. Nowadays, all I hear in LAN shops and Garena are people screaming their asses off. "FUCK YOU LAH CHEEBYE", "STOP FEEDING LAH FUCKER", "GO TO LAND # LAH, ASSHOLE", "KS SIA" and many infamous quotes. I try to do my best in DotA matches, but it always ends up in disputes.

2. You might lose friends
I lost friends due to DotA. One of many things I hated was losing friends through a video game. I feel that it's the stupidest way to lose a friend. The title speaks for itself.

3. My ears hurt in Garena
Kids screaming at the top of their voice. Need I say more? It's just a video game, leave it that way. I can't understand why people get so over-dramatic over a mere video game. I'm a competitive gamer myself, and I can keep my calm, why can't they? >_>

I wanted to play Left 4 Dead 2, but the damn game kept crashing.. I played Counter Strike Source instead. After the LAN session, I noticed some my friends smoking. I ignored it anyway, it's their life, they want it. Just remember, make choices and never look back. If you regretted smoking, it means that you made a poor decision. What about me? I'll never smoke. I made a vow to a late friend that I'll never smoke. Never will, don't bother dragging me into the bandwagon.

Had a nice ride home, the taxi driver was very interactive!

I'm done for today!

Peace out.

February 25, 2010


Hi there.

What a day.. Hahaha.. No.

Yesterday, a friend called me, and asked where am I. He thought I was invited for a BBQ which was on that night itself. I told him I wasn't invited or received any invitation of any sort. He sounded confused, and I, too, was extremely confused. Maybe it's for the better.. Cus I'm mostly acquainted to them, and I'd probably sit out like last time.

I.. have nothing further to say. I already see that coming anyway, better early than late.

Anyway, if you have PayPal, do donate some money for Haiti, which is currently under chaos.

Visit the video page and donate at the bottom of the video description. Even a dollar will do. Thanks.

Never gonna wish for a better day anymore.

Peace out.

February 24, 2010

Internet rage.

Hi there.

Is Internet lagging for anyone? I do. While XBOX360 have the Red Ring of Death; computers have the Blue Screen of Death, I have the Green Blinking Light of Death, on my Internet modem. Whenever GBLoD happens, the Internet shuts down and my downloads get hanged. Really, I think I should change my ISP soon.. I'm using Starhub Maxonline, I used to love it a lot, then suddenly after a year, I got an upgrade [Felt like a downgrade] and my Internet speed caps at 250kb/s. After 7pm, my cap reduced to 90kb/s. Oh man..

My mouse broke today. Finally. I went to United Square to purchase a new one.. And damn, I have not gone out for a long time. During a bus ride, I met this girl who was sitting on a seat next to the standing area. I kept staring at her, because I wanted to see her face. Suddenly, she turned and smiled! I gasped, became nervous and went down quickly on the next stop. Gosh, too nervous. But I probably won't see her anymore. She has a short hairstyle, which is so darn cute, well at least it beats generic hairstyles! Oh well, better luck next time.

I'm currently loving my mouse! It's a Razer Salmosa, a fully matted mouse! It feels awesome, just awesome for gaming. To add-on, it's way cheaper than my old mouse. Old stuff is kinda better the new, ain't it?

I'm done. I'm gonna sleep now.
Always looking for a better day ahead. Peace out.

February 23, 2010

Cleaning up.

Hi thar.

No, no, I'm not cleaning up the house. I cleaned up my Facebook applications. I had like 150+ unused applications which are useless for now. I kept getting notifications from applications I don't wish to see.

Anyway, there's nothing much today. I'll be posting pictures of me unboxing Mass Effect 2 and Bioshock 2 soon. Stay tuned! [I know this should be in my gaming blog.. I don't know why I like it here..]

Always wishing for a better day ahead. Peace out.

February 22, 2010

Heavy Rain.

Hi thar.

It was pouring today and I loved every moment of it. It's been really warm for the past few days and having to live at the top of the flat just makes it even worse. I enjoyed the noises and the water flowing down from the rooftop. It was a magnificent sight nevertheless, once in a while.

If you DID noticed, I have a goal tab on the left. Yeah, I'm hunting for the cheapest XBOX360 set I could find. Reason I'm buying is because most of the games aren't released for the PC. Seems that Microsoft is rather bias to XBOX360 and shows no love for PC users. I spent time counting all the coins I saved throughout last year and accumulated $141. I'm left with a lot, and probably would have to find a job for it.

Today, while playing Modern Warfare 2, a guy with a headset started screaming. He was upset that his friend betrayed him or something. I WAS SURPRISED that everyone actually stopped shooting each other to actually hear him out. It turned out that he's been betrayed by his best friend and currently venting his anger on MW2. Betrayal huh? Venting himself in the game full of hackers might actually make his brain erupt blood.. Seriously. I feel your pain, buddy. That's why I don't trust anyone. =P

To any Steam users out there, do download Braid! Either download the free demo or buy the full version for $14.

It's a side-scrolling puzzle adventure with stunning visuals and beautiful environments. The gameplay is awesome, you can time travel, do lotsa stuff. Grab it if you're bored!

Always wishing for a better day ahead. Do shoutout on my tagboard if you're reading, you know, just to increase my passion for blogging. Peace out.

February 21, 2010

Television time!

Hai thur. (Inspired by Erin.. You made me do it, you punk ass)

I decided to take a break from gaming. So I switched on the television.. And surprise, surprise. Advertisements! Episode 2.

Alright. I watched this ad about some product named Dr. Clean. The name, ugh, is just so corny. There was one too, named Super Muscle, which is just as corny. Two corny names, and two unconvincing advertisements. Dr. Clean's ad showed an actor named Edmund Chen, who pretty much sums up how awesome this product is, by cleaning so-called tough stains, which seemed really fake because those stains in the ad don't look all that tough. The worse thing is printing your own face on the label. I haven't tried this product yet, but I foresee myself against buying this product. I have a stain remover which is not advertised and worked wonders on 5 year old stains.

Super Muscle, on the other hand, won the most corniest advertisement award. It's just so corny. Tough stains are your enemies, but you don't purchase the product, no! You call, "SUPER MUSCLE!". He comes flying into your kitchen like some pseudo super hero and cleans your stains. Ugh, I can't continue. The whole advertisement seemed like it was meant for children, seriously. Dr. Clean's ad wasn't that bad to be honest, just a corny product name, that's all. Super Muscle, wins the corniest award, hands down.

The whole day, there was nothing to watch on TV. So I booted up my PC and watched two movies which I downloaded days ago. They are..

Awesome movie by Stephen King.

Whisper of the Heart, a movie about love and school life. If you watched Spirited Away, you definitely should watch this. It's done by the same creators.

Do watch them and be mesmerized! Last thing to add, it's ironic how old films like Shawshank Redemption (1994) and Whisper of the Heart (1995) are way more fun to watch compared to the CG-efficient movies we watch today. Not to mention, old films received higher scores and better reviews compared to new ones. Are we really degrading? Rofl.

Always wishing for a better day ahead. Peace out.

February 19, 2010

This is how I keep the porn hands-free on my computer.. Just kidding. *smirks*

Oh well, hi there.

What a Friday it has been. Nothing happened. Were you surprised? *of course not*

The skies were pretty dark this afternoon, but it didn't rain.

Have you ever ordered an item from eBay and then waited for it to be delivered at your doorstep every day? I do. I recently placed an order for 3 anticipated games for this year, namely Battlefield - Bad Company 2, Bioshock 2 and Mass Effect 2. I can't wait to play all 3 games, and there's this impatient attitude of mine, which I, eventually, stare out of the window and keep waiting needlessly for a postman or even a single footstep.

Recently, I dropped my Razer Krait mouse on the floor and both the left and right buttons doesn't click when you press it. So I'm planning to get a better mouse.. Well, probably this.

The ultra slick, Razer Deathadder.

But it costs a whopping $100 at maximum. It's kinda hard to find a cheap one in eBay.. So.. I might need to save up again. *drowns in sorrow*

Lastly, have anyone watched Survivor: Heroes vs Villains? It's pretty awesome, a definite must-watch for any Survivor fans. I'm supporting the Villains, because the chicks are there.. Boston Rob is there.. Yeah, pretty much. The Heroes are.. just way over-confident, which cost them 2 immunity challenges. Sugar and Stephenie are out. Heheh. Villains shall rule!

Always wishing for a great day ahead. Peace out.

February 18, 2010

Thursday Morning Insomnia.

Hi there.

I know I have not been updating for quite a while. It's just that I couldn't grasp the need to update everyday. The Lunar New Year holidays have ended.. I've tons of money for my games and my ITE fees and uniform. The Lunar New Year for me, wasn't really exciting. Practically every year I visited my relatives' houses, the general purpose is always to get red packets. It's so hard to interact with everyone because I only visit my relatives once a year. To make matters worse, I don't even know how to speak their language. My mum doesn't want to teach me either. Am I supposed to learn their language from the internet? I can understand Chinese a little better, but they're speaking dialect most of the time. I'm at a loss.. Seriously, this is not how I want to spend my Lunar New Year, but it's the same every damn year..

Currently, I have enough money to purchase 4 games and also pay for my school fees. I'm still jobless.. I've been searching for quite awhile but the recent break from job hunting is making me idle. Makes me wanna just be a social worker.. or do some charity stuff.

I really wished school would start. Yet ironically, on Facebook, I see multiple posts about people sort of complained that school started too early. Don't you wished that you have the power to switch lifestyles? Sigh, people who can't be satisfied with their lives.. I, currently, am sitting on my ass, making it rot for fuck's sake, pushing my damn body to do situps and jog, and I just wanna scream, "FML!" to the whole world. Yeah, like anyone cares. I doubt anyone cares whether I'm dead or alive, roflmao! Everyone's living their life the way they wanted it to be.. Oh gosh, John, you sucked so much. You're an asshole.

Lastly, I hate being kind already. Ignorance is the new gratitude much? Really, I'm sick and tired of people who refuse to say a simple thanks whenever I do something for them. I'm not even asking for much.

Just a simple word, "Thanks."
Woah, that took 1000 years eh? PRETTY HARD EH. I had like gazillion boners.

Gah, seriously. Showing a bit of gratitude doesn't hurt man, it adds a little smile to the person who helped. Look at me, I'm a fucking anti-social, but I still thank people who helped me. I'm just ranting about a day where I helped my friend purchase a box of backup CDs. I traveled for quite a while, only to hear an, "Alright, bye" from my friend. It's like a slap to my face. Geez.

I rant too much.


Always wishing for a great day. Peace out.

February 8, 2010


Hi there.

Nothing to update today.. Just some pictures.

A picture of someone laying on a field. Beautiful.

I brag. A lot.

And some F.E.A.R.


Peace out.

February 5, 2010


Hi there.

I had a suffocating afternoon today. I have no idea whether was it my neighbor downstairs or some repairman, he was smoking near the window right above my room's window. The smoke flowed upwards which eventually gave my room a strong stench. I was bathing at that time, so I had no idea. I fucking hate having to close my windows whenever someone wanna take a stick on the window. My room is on top of the sun (Because I live on the top floor) and really lacking much ventilation. For the whole afternoon, my windows were shut and the room was warm.. Gosh.

I had a bad day too, playing games. Hackers, cheaters and so much more. I don't wish to elaborate. Playing a game of Modern Warfare 2 just boils me up to the max. Before I erupt, I quickly quitted the game. Gosh, hackers are just clusterfuck.

SIGH. What a night. I'm having a splitting headache, so I'm gonna crash soon.

Always hoping for an awesome day. Peace out.

February 4, 2010

Wishing is false hope.

Work of art.

Hi there.

You might have guessed that it's a dark post, a post which strangles and suffocates me in the mind. But no. I had enough of complaining about my life, of other people. It's time to be more, well, optimistic. I used to believe that life is a reversed psychology, you know, you foresaw a negative outcome but it ended up a blessing in disguise. Life was never about wishing, it's what I do with my hands. I already figured it out in the past, but never once I stood and take initiative. Starting today, I shall force myself to exercise, eat less, look on the bright side of life and spend less time in this god-forsaken den. I'll try.. To actually.. LIVE.

Everyday, the skies were gloomy. There was never a bright day. The noises made by my neighbor downstairs was extremely annoying. The Lunar New Year public karaoke with numerous voice breaks was hilarious, but a pain in the ass. In the past, there was a pasar malam before the new year. It was extreme fun, walking around with my family of two, licking candy flosses and those small white things with coconut fillings. Man, those were the best days ever. It was also during that when I gotten my first two Playstation games, Xenogears and Metal Gear Solid, and also the best games I ever played in my life. Now, my neighborhood looks like crap everyday. You'll hear children screaming on top of their voices, groups of youngsters throwing drink cans in the dead of the night, crazy teenagers cycling through the corridor and stupid gossiping aunties. You can say that we've advanced, but I honestly felt that we downgraded, a trillion fold.

A few months left before my course starts. I even heard that someone is heading with me into ITE MacPherson and into Games Design as well. It will be awesome.

There's only one thing I always wished for blindly, which is that tomorrow would be a better day than today. Peace out.

January 31, 2010


Hi there.

I was walking around my house just now, and I found a group of people smoking. That wasn't all though. There were 4 of them, 3 smoking and one wasn't. That non-smoker must have felt left out. Clearly, the 3 smokers were pressurizing the boy (He looked 15 or 16), by throwing insults at him, you know, those infamous private part quotes. They were shouting at him, and he looked as if the world's gonna fall on him. I didn't care and just walked away. Pressurizing someone to smoke a stick? How.. not persuasive.

I received news that ITE Dover's staffroom was gutted in fire. I refused to believe it at first, but after I did some thorough search on Google, it really did happened. Now, I'm surprised. Of all places, the staffroom? Someone must have a grudge against him. Or maybe.. it's just an accident. I hope it doesn't happen at my campus. I heard my campus is pretty small.. but I like it. Especially if it's small, but with a big heart. It's balanced.

To be honest, I really can't wait to enter ITE. It may sound weird but for once, I think I'll be able to make friends that share the same gaming hobby with me. Cool eh.

One of these years.. I wanna migrate to either Japan or New York. I don't know why, but I suddenly don't like it in Singapore. Prices are skyrocketing, interest rates everywhere. Maybe Singapore's rates are lowest among all countries.. But I find the rates unbelievable. Oh well, I shall see.. in the future.

I'm done for today.. Peace out!

January 28, 2010


January Wallpaper.

I wanna go berserk one day.
I wanna smash bricks.
I wanna kick balls.

Just about anything to satisfy my wrath.

January 24, 2010


Hi there.

Well.. Well.. Well..
It's my birthday today! I'm 19 years old now.. Pretty old eh?

Chungaik and Erin asked me why I did not celebrate my birthday.. As some people noticed, the birthday celebrations in the past were not arranged by me, no. It was my friends. I celebrated a total of 4 times, 2 times when I was young and 2 times in Secondary school. I treasured those 4 celebrations very much, I kept photos of it with me, except for my last celebration, where I got sprayed with cream. My first two celebrations happened when I was young, after that, my family had some kind of trouble and then, I never celebrated then. For well around 5-6 years without birthday celebrations, I gotten used to it. I always thought of my own birthday as a normal, ordinary day. This is me.. Once I gotten used to it, I'll find it hard to kick the habit.

For the whole day, I was at home, refreshing Facebook everytime to see new greetings. Each time I see a new one, I gotten a little happier. I was a little disappointed when some old friends of mine whom I expected to wish me a happy birthday didn't do so. I was a little sensitive, but I thought to myself the whole day, "Why should you care? You're 19 anyway!". So eventually, I grew numb of my stupid thoughts and actually just be happy. Adding on, I celebrated my birthday with video games, yeah, really. I'm pretty much a no-lifer.

I also watched Brad played VVVVVV on the 4PlayerPodcast live show. I'm so glad he made me happy, although he doesn't know it. His hilarious voice-overs and raging made me laughed like mad! Thank you, Brad, even if you're not reading this but you made mine and many's others day. Anyway, if you wanna play VVVVVV, click here. I agree it's a pretty weird name for a game, but be sure to play it! It's very challenging and mind-raging at times! Enjoy!

I gotten 3 presents. One from my mother, one from my maid and one from Jiemin! My mother bought me a new phone (Which most of my friends already knew), my maid bought me a deodorant (After all, she washes my clothes!) and Jiemin bought me a really cool plushie!

Thanks! I placed it next to my computer, which I use daily. Her present's the tallest one. Thanks again!

Well, my birthday's gonna be over. Today sucks anyway.

Peace out!