October 23, 2009


Can I borrow an external hard-drive from anyone? Only for a day!


October 19, 2009

Reminiscence is the remedy to nothing.

Alright, I shall update.

The past few days have been rather.. depressing. My school life officially ended on last Friday. I did everything that I rarely do during this year like disturbing friends, playing around and much more. Mr Kwan received his retirement *something* during assembly that day. The D&T students and I were elated! We took a group picture together, with other D&T students as well to commemorate his retirement. Happy retirement Mr Kwan, rest assured we'll do well for our D&T theory papers!

After school, I had to rush home quickly to attend a relative's funeral (It was the first funeral I attended). It was my father's brother's wife, probably my Aunt I guess? I know, I suck at memorizing a family tree.. Whatever. It was a depressing sight, really. It was my first time being at a Chinese funeral. I had to wear a white shirt and a blue patch, with was pinned onto my right short sleeve. I had to perform, with other relatives, numerous rituals and prayers. Haha, I'm still feeling the pain from kneeling down continuously. For the whole day, my face was dull. Because when someone I know passes away, I get very emotional.. But being realistic, how can one actually feel happy in a funeral? During a ritual, I saw my Aunt in the casket, and I just cried a little. I'm gonna miss her, really. She cooks very well and she's a very devoted mother to her children..

On Saturday, I reached at 9am+ at the funeral for the cremation ceremony. We had to do some rituals again, probably to pay our respects I guess. Then a musical troop comes in and plays. When the children need to carry their mother's casket, we were told to turn around. After that, we have to walk with the crowd and the troop. After walking for awhile, we head up into the bus and head to the crematorium. While at there, we have to some final rituals because Aunt gets cremated. During cremation ceremony, everyone was crying. I cried too, it was just.. a depressing sight.. After that, we returned to Ubi for lunch and headed back home.

Suddenly, I had a reminiscence. I felt awkward not attending Suying's funeral in the USA months ago. I missed her so much.. There's simply no way I could forget her. I have to, one day though. Reminiscence is the remedy to nothing.

Sigh. Life's obstacles..

Talk about life's obstacles, I watched Project Hope earlier on and once again, felt depressed at the amount of people who died. Some people would say that 2012 is really the harbinger of doom, but I would, on the other hand, suck it up and pray for the deceased souls. Instead of losing hope and REALLY hoping 2012 is death, help others. Vietnam, Philippines and now Thailand because of a mere grenade or bomb which killed numerous. These people are innocent and they don't deserve to die! Even babies died. This had had to be the worst week ever.

We're lucky in Singapore, because no disaster could reach us. The countries surrounding us are our punching bags. Guys, if you treasure your life, live it to the fullest. Be optimistic and compassionate. People outside our country are suffering greatly, while you're here, playing games, complaining about your life and so much more.

My dearest Aunt and those who passed away during the disasters, please rest in peace.

Good night and peace out.

October 12, 2009


Wow, I have no idea.. what I'm gonna blog about.

Academics? Grr.. Really, I wish the examinations end soon. I want to work ASAP. This school life is driving me crazy. I heard that the O levels aren't that hard and I wasn't sure whether it's true or not. Seems unbelievable. Look at what the school's doing. Cramming every shit into a single day, and it continues day by day. Look at the "Ship" so-called self study sessions. I wanted to attend it and guess what. Nobody's there. For the past few days, no one attended it (Unless it's situated at a different venue, but there's no announcement for it). I guess it failed. There was a Social Studies consultation earlier today, but I didn't want to attend it.. because it's done by a teacher whom I can't understand (I'm not saying he's bad at teaching or whatever, it's just that his accent wanna make me doze off).

Courage? I'm encouraged by tons of people, my friends, even Miss Pang, my past friends and Big Sister Erin (Haha, sounds so.. so wrong. Don't bash me eh?). I have the courage to face the dreaded O levels.. But is my mind mentally encouraged? Well, Humanities is blocking the path. Seriously, screw you Humanities. I wanted to take Literature, but you rejected me, you pile of cunt. UGH. Life's so unfair, since the beginning of Secondary school life. Sigh. Sigh. Sigh.

Charm? Hey, I got no charm at all. Look at me. I look like some lowly old pervert who preys on girls (Ugh, that was a joke). Whatever the case, there will always be stereotypes depicting that fat and obese people have no charm, not a single bit. Being obese is so scary. You'll have people who look way better than you by a million folds, stare at you and like "SWOOOOSH" you away. Gosh, egoistic very much? Sigh, people who judge books by their CONTENT are SCARCE.

Noticed how I relate my post to the daily status of Persona 3? Haha, I received my Playstation 2 on Saturday by a really friendly seller. His name was Colin and he had good manners. And also credits to Muhib for hunting that PS2 for me! I had lots of fun during the weekend. Although I'm five years late, it beats having to pay so much in the past than now. Unfortunately, I requested my mum to confiscate my PS2 controllers, so that I'm unable to play. *cries*

Well, just a song, for the lovers out there! (Actually, I hope to see a good cover of this song..)

Song: 1234 - Plain White T's
1, 2, 1, 2, 3, 4

Give me more lovin' than I've ever had
Make it all better when I'm feelin' sad
Tell me that I'm special even when I know I'm not

Make me feel good when I hurt so bad
Barely gettin' mad, I'm so glad I found you
I love bein' around you
You make it easy, it's as easy as 1, 2, 1, 2, 3, 4

There's only one thing to do
Three words for you I love you
There's only one way to say
Those three words and that's what I'll do, I love you

Give me more lovin' from the very start
Piece me back together when I fall apart
Tell me things you never even tell your closest friends

Make me feel good when I hurt so bad
Best that I've had, I'm so glad that I found you
I love bein' around you
You make it easy, it's as easy as 1, 2, 1, 2, 3, 4

There's only one thing to do
Three words for you I love you
There's only one way to say
Those three words and that's what I'll do, I love you
I love you

You make it easy, it's easy as 1, 2, 1, 2, 3, 4

There's only one thing to do
Three words for you I love you
There's only one way to say
Those three words and that's what I'll do, I love you
I love you

1, 2, 3, 4
I love you
I love you


Well, I'm beat.
Good night and peace out!

October 7, 2009

Tiring day!

What a tiring day!

I was a bit down today.. Cus I gotten a 28/80 for the Maths Mock Examination. I was sad though, cus I really did study for the examination, but I happened to forget all of it again! Please.. Please don't say I'm lying, cus I really did study. I was probably the lowest in the class, judging by Mr Chui's comment. But he was a good guy, because when I asked him for help, he said, "What happened to you?" and also added that I should work hard and stuff like that. It was encouraging, really. Jerome and Muhib also encouraged me to strive on! Thanks guys and Mr Chui!

Mr Kung WAS definitely disappointed! Yeah, it was really weird that everyone did their Maths Paper so fast, and I was probably the of the last few guys in Mr Chui's group who was still doing it. I skipped a horribly easy Algebra question, and Mr Kung FINALLY scolded me for it. I had to stay back after the paper to do some Algebra revision. Muhib was kind enough to stay back and help me a little. But you know what's the irony? I'm able to do all the exercises on the assessment book he lent me, BUT I'M TOTALLY LOST AT HOW TO APPLY IT INTO THE QUESTION! After 2 hours of intensive revision, finally, I'm able to do it. I probably will fail the Maths Paper 1 again.. But this time, I learned a valuable lesson!

I studied with Jerome till 7pm in the evening. As always, studying in the evening rocks, cus nobody's disturbing you. Peace and quiet. Oh, and if anyone wanna study with me and Jerome, please do come, though a maximum of 4 people would be alright.

With O levels around the corner.. I can't help it but to make use of every opportunities around me.

Yeah. In short, I woke up. =D

Good night and peace out!

October 6, 2009

What an interesting day!

As above.

/starts rant

Why? Here it goes.. It was raining today. It wasn't an ordinary rain. The wind was so strong that a shelter alone, wasn't able to cover me fully. It was raining so heavily that you could not see the buildings. I was paranoid for a second.. I really thought it was a disaster or something. But well, the weather ended kinda fast..

While at school, Miss Pang told a group of selected students (I was one of them.. Unfortunately..) that they must stay back after school every single day from 2.4o/2.00pm to 5.00pm, 6th to 23th October. Which immediately concludes.. No study break for these selected students. Now, with the afternoon consultations, workshops and APs, there would be clashes for these students.. Honestly, I feel that all these extra lessons are just being stuffed into our schedule, without thinking. To add-on, the after-school self-study at the heritage room, well, was really bad.

It was so warm, with only two fans. The lights were so glaring, and releases heat as well. The tables were so DAMN small. The tables cum chair, 2-in-1, in the AVA room. It just.. feels really crammed, but I'm able to get accustomed to it. I would rather study in a void deck, despite not having any fans at all. Apparently, there were two groups, one called Ship and the other, Dragon. We were the "Ship", and it didn't feel like one. Wasn't it supposed to be called a Junk? On the other hand, Dragon was studying in an air-conditioned room.

Picture a Ship. It should be cooling, as there are waters everywhere. Picture a Dragon. It breathes scorching flames and it's very warm. Get the irony?

/ends rant

Good night and peace out!

October 4, 2009

Life is beautiful.

Yup, life is beautiful, FOR ME, that is. Whenever things are going badly, I'll always try to make myself happy. Well, definitely not by drinking or any other similar ones.. Life is always unfair, but still, I suck it up, like a sponge. Hmm..

The past few days been rather hectic, well, except for Friday.. Lessons ended quite late on Friday, like around 5 pm. Not to mention, it was already peak hours. As a result, I ended up standing while almost everyone sat on their comfy seats. My legs were aching already, and I had to meet Erin later that night. I tolerated. I reached home, washed up, ate dinner and went to meet Erin. Surprisingly, she brought a friend, a female one. I wondered what was gonna happen.. Cus I have a soft spot for females. At the end of our study session, she suddenly said, "Let's overcome your weakness for girls!". For 30 minutes, we did not have sex (I KNOW WHAT YOU'RE THINKING!). We merely just made eye contact to each other, for 30 MINUTES. I did perspire a lot. After a while, I'm like.. "Hey, it's not that bad after all..". Right now, I think I can face girls with a lot more confidence now! Thanks Erin and her friend, Huiyi (I think?), owe you guys one!

Saturday. Heh. Initially, I thought the F9 students were taught by Mr Auyong, being the only reason why I came yesterday. As Vice-Principal, he should be able to a better job that most teachers right? However, I was tricked. They did not say that the N(A) and Express students would be split up! Seriously! And what's with this stereotype about N(A) students behaving badly? The AVA room is so huge, really, there's no reason why both streams should be split up.. In the end, our teacher was Miss Tho. She was alright, I think? Lots of students told me that she digresses frequently, but yesterday, she digressed a little..

Still, what a shitload of fuck. I don't know.. I just hate being tricked, that's all.

The world is suffering now.. Tsunamis, earthquakes, MISSILES BEING FUCKING LAUNCHED IN NORTH KOREA. Seriously, were the North Koreans out of their minds? A single nuclear missile alone could cause radiation up to a thousand folds! You know what? Screw North Korea, and South Korea FTW. What's with all these nuclear businesses?

3 more weeks to O levels.. I'm scared already. 6 years in Gan Eng Seng School, and I'm only doing my O levels now. Lmao. Friends of friends! Please encourage each other to revise! I have to agree with Mrs Tan's quote. Friends succeed together, not alone! Teamwork for the win!

Well, I'm done.
Good night and peace out!