December 1, 2009


Alright. I said I'll be updating today (It should be tonight, but it sounds wrong).

What's there to update.. Hmm.. Well, I've been playing Modern Warfare 2 for a really long time. From my X-Fire gaming hours count, I've accumulated 38 hours on that game alone. It's really addictive, despite what other PC gamers said about the game. Try it out! I bought 3 games this last month, Modern Warfare 2, Dragon Age - Origins and Persona 4 (WHICH HAS YET TO ARRIVE). Of course.. I have to balance it all.. Social life, gaming life and my health.

Speaking of health.. I started running today. I felt 0 determination to run any further.. So I stopped at 5 rounds of run/walk. I kept pondering. What's missing? I sat down on a bench looking at the sky like an idiot, okay.. I finally thought, I should woo a girl already. But hell, it's the school holidays and I'm partially out of my social life! Social networking doesn't cut it. Aw man. Seriously, if a pretty girl kisses me, I think I could run 20 laps and still perform 50 push-ups man. (Okay, that's was exaggerating)

30 more days to slim down. UGH. The beginning is so difficult.

Good night and peace out!

November 18, 2009

We thought.


Ah.. Graduation Night.. Prom Night.. GESS Perfect Night 09 or whatever you want to call it. It was my first time wearing a smart casual outfit, and I loved every moment of it. I did not have enough money for other accessories such as a black blazer, chains or whatever. Everyone looked suave, handsome, sexy and gorgeous. These people used their time to put on make up, do whatever they deem necessary and flaunt it in front of everyone. That wasn't the case for me though.. I just wanted to look simple, cus' simplicity is my middle name. I kinda regretted it, I wanted to look awesome, turned out that I looked like a normal person going out. BUT. Whatever the case, I loved my outfit.

Everyone was taking pictures. Before that, I was feeling down. I kept moving my glass of Coke in a circular motion, hoping to kill some time. I felt ignored then. To my surprise, some girls wanted to take a picture with me! I was elated, of course. It was this once, I felt that ignorance wasn't bliss. It just sucks. I gotten back my party mood, and of course, messed around with some friends. One thing I didn't liked though, my table wasn't enthusiastic. I liked how 2/3 of my class were having extreme fun, I wanted to join them, but I couldn't bear to leave my table. So I just sat and sightsee. I wished my class was a whole, not fragmented. Well, it's too late anyway. Been there done that, many times.

I loved the games. They were very creative in this. I enjoyed everything, especially Jessie and Heamen's Bollywood MV! I was laughing with joy all over and couldn't help but be glad that they are together in this, as a school couple, enjoying themselves. I heaved a sigh of positivity. Yeah, sighs. I kept sighing throughout the night, I guess even Chungaik was sick of it. And.. For once, I felt like an old man, no idea why.

I didn't expect the finalé to be just dancing to the beat and singing the Graduation Song by Vitamin C. I thought it would be us singing to the tune of the school song, as one whole graduation cohort and as loudly as possible. Nevertheless, I enjoyed myself, boogied a little and had tremendous fun. I also have to thank Derrick for letting me wear his blazer, I felt awesome in it, but it's more suited for you.. and Mun Tat for lending me his Ray-Bans for me to try on, I loved every moment of it.

After everything.. I was a little upset because the whole class wasn't at the stage to take a class photo. "But John, you can't wish for everything", that phrase kept hitting my mind. I guess that 5B wouldn't actually BE 5B after all. It's just a majority of the fragments, and the minority were no where to be found. Took a picture as a fragmented class in the end, and I can't say I don't like the picture, it looks awesome, but WAY more awesome if the whole class was there, and shouting "5B!" while taking it.

Finally, I went home. My friends wanted me to go into a pub, but I refused because I had to meet someone later on. I went home, changed and went to meet Erin. Anything after that is strictly personal =D

I love 5B. A class I'll never forget. Thank you 5B for giving me the best memories of my 6 years in GESS. You people, are fucking loved. Peace.


November 17, 2009


I have a gut feeling that I'll be the only one who won't enjoy the Graduation Night dinner. I hate these feelings.. FML seriously.

November 16, 2009



The 30 Most Satisfying Simple Pleasures Life Has to Offer.

  1. Sleeping In on a Rainy Day – As the rain beats lightly against the window, you nestle your head deeper into your pillow. The sound is soothing and your bed feels like a sanctuary. There is no place you would rather be.
  2. Finding Money You Didn’t Know You Had – You reach into your pocket and find a $20 bill from the last time you wore these jeans. You aren’t rich, but you are richer than you were a second earlier.
  3. Making Brief Eye Contact with Someone of the Opposite Sex – You pass her on the street or in the subway. She glances up at you momentarily, making direct eye contact in a way that seems to communicate a subtle curiosity. For a split second it makes you think… and then it’s gone.
  4. Skinny Dipping – There is something mysteriously liberating about being naked in a body of water. You are naked, but it feels natural, a sense of unrefined freedom.
  5. Receiving a Real Letter or Package via Snail Mail – E-mail has become the primary source of written communication. Most snail mail these days is junk mail. When you check the mail and find a real letter or package from someone you know, excitement overtakes you as you tear into this rare gift.
  6. Making the Yellow Light - It’s one of the most common simple pleasures, the act of beating the pack. As you blaze through the yellow light you glance in your rearview to see all the cars behind you stopping at the red light. Yes! You made it!
  7. Telling a Funny or Interesting, True Story - One of the most enticing roles you lead in life is that of the storyteller. You love to share stories, especially those that will captivate your audience with deep curiosity and humor. There are few things more satisfying than telling a true story that others enjoy listening to.
  8. Seeing a Friend Stumble Over Himself – As you walk across the street with your friend, he fails to accurately address the curb on the other side. He trips and stumbles around momentarily before regaining his footing, then swiftly attempts to play it off like nothing happened. This can be a hilarious sight if the moment is right.
  9. Hearing the Right Song at the Right Moment - It doesn’t matter what the setting is, hearing the right song for that moment is one of those simple pleasures in life that instantly lifts your spirits. You could be driving home from work, hanging out at a bar with friends, or jogging. When the right song rattles your ear drums the entire meaning of life seems crystal clear.
  10. The First Sip of a Beverage When You’re Thirsty – You just finished mowing the lawn or taking a long jog. The only thing on your mind is an ice-cold glass of water. When you are really, really thirsty, that first sip of any liquid beverage is sheer bliss.
  11. Catching a Glimpse of Bare Skin on the Opposite Sex – For guys, it’s when the waitress bends over a little too far. For girls it’s seeing that buff guy in a Speedo. Either way, when you see a bit more skin than you were expecting on the opposite sex, you can’t help but to smirk on the inside.
  12. Saying the Same Thing Simultaneously – There is a moment of silence. Then all of the sudden you and your friend blurt out the same exact set of words simultaneously. This rare occurrence is something to smile about.
  13. The Pull-Through Parking Spot – You pull into a parking spot and are delighted to see the availability of the parking spot immediately in front of you. You pull through to the spot in front so that when you return to the car you can drive forward out of the parking spot. Why? Because driving backwards is a pain in the butt.
  14. Realizing You Have More Time to Sleep – Something abruptly awakens you and you think it’s time to get up. Then you squint over at your alarm clock and realize you still have 2 more hours to sleep. A warm euphoric feeling shoots though your body as you glide gracefully back to your dreams.
  15. People Watching – Sitting there on your bench you can see people in every direction. Tall people, small people, thin and plump. Blond, brunette, and redhead alike. Each of them has a different stride and a unique expression. As you drift from body to body you are mesmerized by what you see.
  16. Putting On Clothes Straight from the Dryer – As soon as the dryer buzzes, you pull out your clothes and put them on. They feel soothingly warm on your skin and emit a fresh-scented aroma into the air. A sentiment of ease comes over you as you head out to conquer the day.
  17. A Familiar Smell – You just pulled into your parent’s driveway and opened the car door. You haven’t been home in a long while. You smell familiarity in the air, the scent of a large pine tree in the neighbor’s yard. As you head through the front door, more familiar smells consume your senses. Gosh, it feels good to be home…
  18. The Feeling You Get When Your Idea Works – You have been struggling to resolve a complex problem all day and you just can’t seem to get it right. Filled with frustration, you decide to exercise one last idea before calling it a night. You’ve had many ideas before that failed miserably… but this time it works.
  19. Fresh, Clean Bed Sheets – You yank at the corner of the bedspread to create just enough space to slide your body under the freshly cleaned sheets. The sheets feel cool to the touch. Everything seems so clean, like nobody has ever slept in this bed before.
  20. A Beautiful View – As the car veers around the side of the mountain you gaze out the passenger window. It’s a clear, sunny day and you can see the entire valley below filled with wild flowers and bright green vegetation. The scenery reminds you of something you once saw in National Geographic. But here it is live, right before your eyes.
  21. Reminiscing About Old Times with Your Closest Friends – Pink Floyd once said “the memories of a man in his old age are the deeds of a man in his prime”. There is no simple pleasure more satisfying than recounting the greatest moments of your life with your closest friends who lived these moments alongside you.
  22. Receiving an Unexpected Compliment – It’s been an average day. Nothing really great has happened, but nothing terrible occurred either. This monotonous day has put you in a dreary mood. Unexpectedly, an older, attractive lady taps you on the shoulder, calls you “handsome” and says she loves your shirt. The day just got a whole lot better.
  23. Having a Good Laugh – Laughter is the greatest cure of all. Life is extraordinary in the moments when you are laughing so hard you can barely breathe. These moments of deep laughter are divine in the sense that they cleanse your mood and set your mind on a positive track.
  24. The Feeling After a Healthy Workout - It’s a giddy feeling of self accomplishment; the one true activity that actually makes you feel better and look better simultaneously. When you walk out the front door of the gym you are on top of the world.
  25. The Celebration in the Instant Something Makes Sense – Even now that it has explained to you for the third time, you just don’t understand how it works. Everyone else seems to understand but you. Then out of the blue the dots connect in your mind. You finally get it, and it feels great!
  26. Relaxing Outdoors on a Sunny Day – As you relax sprawled out in a lawn chair, the sun warms your skin and a light breeze keeps the temperature comfortable. Birds are chirping merrily in the trees behind you. You are at complete peace with the environment.
  27. Holding Hands with Someone You Love – Every time she grabs your hand you are overcome with an awareness of how much she means to you. Holding hands is sensual and physically intimate, yet subtle. There are few people you allow to hold your hand, so when it happens you can be sure that the moment is special.
  28. Playing in the Water – Water marvels people of all ages. From jumping in puddles as a child, to doing cannon balls in the pool as an adolescent, to enjoying a cocktail in the Jacuzzi as an adult… water is enjoyable.
  29. Making Someone Smile – You notice that your colleague has been under a great deal of stress with meeting a deadline, so you take it upon yourself to complete one of her indirect responsibilities for her. As soon as she realizes what you did, she comes into your office with a big smile on her face. “Thank you”, she says. You just hit two birds with one stone, because making her smile just made your day.
  30. Finishing What You Started – You just finished up a big project you’ve been working on for the last few months, or maybe you just finished your first marathon… Either way, you finalized what you set out to accomplish. The feeling of self accomplishment you get when you finish what you started is by far one of the most rewarding simple pleasures life has to offer.

November 15, 2009


Yeah! I finally bought my graduation night clothes, well except for the belt but all is well! (Thanks Chungaik and Boon Keat for accompanying ya!) I tried it out, though I looked a lil baggy (Should have went to alter it, argh) and I looked awesome! MUAHAHA. I can't wait for the night to come.. Man.. So near yet so far..

Anyway, I'm gonna play some games.

Here, I wanna share a video of a FEMALE GAMER! Can you believe it? A female gamer who pwns way more than me. *cries* Even if you're not a CoD4 fan, do watch the editing and listen. It's kinda awesome! Any female gamers out there? I WANNA DATE YOU! LMAO.

I'm done.

Bye and peace out!

November 13, 2009

Crazy Massacre

A scene in Modern Warfare 2, which really gave me the creeps.

I still have not bought MW2 yet, because all my money is being spent on graduation night clothes. I think I'll be wearing a black long-sleeved buttoned shirt, a pair of dark jeans (Anyone wondered whether a formal shirt goes well with a pair of jeans?), a white or silver tie, a white belt and sneakers maybe.. I know, you must be wondering why am I so nervous and picky over my selection of clothes.. I haven't dressed formally yet, it's my first time and I want to make sure it's my best!

Back to MW2.. I downloaded a pirated version of MW2, with no multiplayer support, which sucks. The campaign was awesome. If you played its predecessor CoD4:MW, MW2 is a sequel. So much backstabbing, drama and it almost felt like a movie.

I can't wait to buy it though, it costs a whooping $70 bucks! Can you believe that? Normal PC games only cost about 49.99.

Oh well, enough of me boring you with games.

Lastly, my wallpaper for November. Some changes though.. Computer's on life support now. *cries*

I'm off!

Good night and peace out!

Hero - Skillet


I'm just a step away
I'm just a breath away
Losing my faith today
Falling off the edge today

I am just a man
Not superhuman
I'm not superhuman
Someone save me from the hate

It's just another war
Just another family torn
Falling from my faith today
Just a step from the edge
Just another day in the world we live

I need a hero to save me now
I need a hero, save me now
I need a hero to save my life
A hero will save me just in time

I've gotta fight today
To live another day
Speaking my mind today
My voice will be heard today

I've gotta make a stand
But I am just a man
I'm not superhuman
My voice will be heard today

It's just another war
Just another family torn
My voice will be heard today
It's just another kill
The countdown begins to destroy ourselves

I need a hero to save me now
I need a hero, save me now
I need a hero to save my life
A hero will save me just in time

I need a hero to save my life
I need a hero, just in time
Save me just in time
Save me just in time

Who's gonna fight for what's right?
Who's gonna help us survive?
We're in the fight of our lives
And we're not ready to die

Who's gonna fight for the weak?
Who's gonna make 'em believe?
I've got a hero, I've got a hero
Living in me

I'm gonna fight for what's right
Today I'm speaking my mind
And if it kills me tonight
I will be ready to die

A hero's not afraid to give his life
A hero's gonna save me just in time

I need a hero to save me now
I need a hero, save me now
I need a hero to save my life
A hero will save me just in time

(I need a hero)
Who's gonna fight for what's right?
Who's gonna help us survive?

(I need a hero)
Who's gonna fight for the weak?
Who's gonna make 'em believe?
I've got a hero

I need a hero
A hero's gonna save me just in time

~ Jen Ledger is hawt!

November 11, 2009


Heh, the examinations have ended, at last. I've been waiting for this day, for ages! Finally, I finished my 6-year Secondary life and I'm not embarrassed to admit it.

Be it ITE or Polytechnic, I'm still not giving up. I'm having doubts about heading into Polytechnic because I flunked my Social Studies. I took a huge risk by just concentrating on 1 topic. Turned out, it did not come out any of the 3 SEQs. On the History side, it was a risk worth taking. I concentrated on Stalin and it came out as the first SEQ. I was so damn happy, but thinking that Social Studies would be a sure fail, my hopes died. Whether there would be a moderation or not, me going either ITE or Polytechnic is fine with me. My mother supported me in my decision. So I'm just gonna wait for a few more months for the results release.

If anyone has a job recommendation, please recommend me! I have no experience yet though, cus I only did neighborhood jobs such as cleaning cars, stacking in NTUC supermarkets which is totally boring..

Next Wednesday is Graduation Night.. Man, I can't wait. Everyone is gonna be in their super hot, super sexy and super suave formal wears. It's gonna be awesome. I do hope that there's a class photo taking, it would be awesome. I hope I'm lucky enough to take a picture with a girl, which only happened in my dreams. Lmao. Whatever. I'm just gonna bring the roof down! (Not really bringing the roof down, like having fun or something, haha).

That being said, I'm done!

BTW IS ANYONE GOING OUT TO PURCHASE GRADUATION NIGHT CLOTHES? If you do, please ask me to tag along! Cus I'm always stuck in my hole and not too familiar with the world outside! If nobody is free, oh well, I'll have to suck it up and purchase it on my own..


Good night and peace out!

October 23, 2009


Can I borrow an external hard-drive from anyone? Only for a day!


October 19, 2009

Reminiscence is the remedy to nothing.

Alright, I shall update.

The past few days have been rather.. depressing. My school life officially ended on last Friday. I did everything that I rarely do during this year like disturbing friends, playing around and much more. Mr Kwan received his retirement *something* during assembly that day. The D&T students and I were elated! We took a group picture together, with other D&T students as well to commemorate his retirement. Happy retirement Mr Kwan, rest assured we'll do well for our D&T theory papers!

After school, I had to rush home quickly to attend a relative's funeral (It was the first funeral I attended). It was my father's brother's wife, probably my Aunt I guess? I know, I suck at memorizing a family tree.. Whatever. It was a depressing sight, really. It was my first time being at a Chinese funeral. I had to wear a white shirt and a blue patch, with was pinned onto my right short sleeve. I had to perform, with other relatives, numerous rituals and prayers. Haha, I'm still feeling the pain from kneeling down continuously. For the whole day, my face was dull. Because when someone I know passes away, I get very emotional.. But being realistic, how can one actually feel happy in a funeral? During a ritual, I saw my Aunt in the casket, and I just cried a little. I'm gonna miss her, really. She cooks very well and she's a very devoted mother to her children..

On Saturday, I reached at 9am+ at the funeral for the cremation ceremony. We had to do some rituals again, probably to pay our respects I guess. Then a musical troop comes in and plays. When the children need to carry their mother's casket, we were told to turn around. After that, we have to walk with the crowd and the troop. After walking for awhile, we head up into the bus and head to the crematorium. While at there, we have to some final rituals because Aunt gets cremated. During cremation ceremony, everyone was crying. I cried too, it was just.. a depressing sight.. After that, we returned to Ubi for lunch and headed back home.

Suddenly, I had a reminiscence. I felt awkward not attending Suying's funeral in the USA months ago. I missed her so much.. There's simply no way I could forget her. I have to, one day though. Reminiscence is the remedy to nothing.

Sigh. Life's obstacles..

Talk about life's obstacles, I watched Project Hope earlier on and once again, felt depressed at the amount of people who died. Some people would say that 2012 is really the harbinger of doom, but I would, on the other hand, suck it up and pray for the deceased souls. Instead of losing hope and REALLY hoping 2012 is death, help others. Vietnam, Philippines and now Thailand because of a mere grenade or bomb which killed numerous. These people are innocent and they don't deserve to die! Even babies died. This had had to be the worst week ever.

We're lucky in Singapore, because no disaster could reach us. The countries surrounding us are our punching bags. Guys, if you treasure your life, live it to the fullest. Be optimistic and compassionate. People outside our country are suffering greatly, while you're here, playing games, complaining about your life and so much more.

My dearest Aunt and those who passed away during the disasters, please rest in peace.

Good night and peace out.

October 12, 2009


Wow, I have no idea.. what I'm gonna blog about.

Academics? Grr.. Really, I wish the examinations end soon. I want to work ASAP. This school life is driving me crazy. I heard that the O levels aren't that hard and I wasn't sure whether it's true or not. Seems unbelievable. Look at what the school's doing. Cramming every shit into a single day, and it continues day by day. Look at the "Ship" so-called self study sessions. I wanted to attend it and guess what. Nobody's there. For the past few days, no one attended it (Unless it's situated at a different venue, but there's no announcement for it). I guess it failed. There was a Social Studies consultation earlier today, but I didn't want to attend it.. because it's done by a teacher whom I can't understand (I'm not saying he's bad at teaching or whatever, it's just that his accent wanna make me doze off).

Courage? I'm encouraged by tons of people, my friends, even Miss Pang, my past friends and Big Sister Erin (Haha, sounds so.. so wrong. Don't bash me eh?). I have the courage to face the dreaded O levels.. But is my mind mentally encouraged? Well, Humanities is blocking the path. Seriously, screw you Humanities. I wanted to take Literature, but you rejected me, you pile of cunt. UGH. Life's so unfair, since the beginning of Secondary school life. Sigh. Sigh. Sigh.

Charm? Hey, I got no charm at all. Look at me. I look like some lowly old pervert who preys on girls (Ugh, that was a joke). Whatever the case, there will always be stereotypes depicting that fat and obese people have no charm, not a single bit. Being obese is so scary. You'll have people who look way better than you by a million folds, stare at you and like "SWOOOOSH" you away. Gosh, egoistic very much? Sigh, people who judge books by their CONTENT are SCARCE.

Noticed how I relate my post to the daily status of Persona 3? Haha, I received my Playstation 2 on Saturday by a really friendly seller. His name was Colin and he had good manners. And also credits to Muhib for hunting that PS2 for me! I had lots of fun during the weekend. Although I'm five years late, it beats having to pay so much in the past than now. Unfortunately, I requested my mum to confiscate my PS2 controllers, so that I'm unable to play. *cries*

Well, just a song, for the lovers out there! (Actually, I hope to see a good cover of this song..)

Song: 1234 - Plain White T's
1, 2, 1, 2, 3, 4

Give me more lovin' than I've ever had
Make it all better when I'm feelin' sad
Tell me that I'm special even when I know I'm not

Make me feel good when I hurt so bad
Barely gettin' mad, I'm so glad I found you
I love bein' around you
You make it easy, it's as easy as 1, 2, 1, 2, 3, 4

There's only one thing to do
Three words for you I love you
There's only one way to say
Those three words and that's what I'll do, I love you

Give me more lovin' from the very start
Piece me back together when I fall apart
Tell me things you never even tell your closest friends

Make me feel good when I hurt so bad
Best that I've had, I'm so glad that I found you
I love bein' around you
You make it easy, it's as easy as 1, 2, 1, 2, 3, 4

There's only one thing to do
Three words for you I love you
There's only one way to say
Those three words and that's what I'll do, I love you
I love you

You make it easy, it's easy as 1, 2, 1, 2, 3, 4

There's only one thing to do
Three words for you I love you
There's only one way to say
Those three words and that's what I'll do, I love you
I love you

1, 2, 3, 4
I love you
I love you


Well, I'm beat.
Good night and peace out!

October 7, 2009

Tiring day!

What a tiring day!

I was a bit down today.. Cus I gotten a 28/80 for the Maths Mock Examination. I was sad though, cus I really did study for the examination, but I happened to forget all of it again! Please.. Please don't say I'm lying, cus I really did study. I was probably the lowest in the class, judging by Mr Chui's comment. But he was a good guy, because when I asked him for help, he said, "What happened to you?" and also added that I should work hard and stuff like that. It was encouraging, really. Jerome and Muhib also encouraged me to strive on! Thanks guys and Mr Chui!

Mr Kung WAS definitely disappointed! Yeah, it was really weird that everyone did their Maths Paper so fast, and I was probably the of the last few guys in Mr Chui's group who was still doing it. I skipped a horribly easy Algebra question, and Mr Kung FINALLY scolded me for it. I had to stay back after the paper to do some Algebra revision. Muhib was kind enough to stay back and help me a little. But you know what's the irony? I'm able to do all the exercises on the assessment book he lent me, BUT I'M TOTALLY LOST AT HOW TO APPLY IT INTO THE QUESTION! After 2 hours of intensive revision, finally, I'm able to do it. I probably will fail the Maths Paper 1 again.. But this time, I learned a valuable lesson!

I studied with Jerome till 7pm in the evening. As always, studying in the evening rocks, cus nobody's disturbing you. Peace and quiet. Oh, and if anyone wanna study with me and Jerome, please do come, though a maximum of 4 people would be alright.

With O levels around the corner.. I can't help it but to make use of every opportunities around me.

Yeah. In short, I woke up. =D

Good night and peace out!

October 6, 2009

What an interesting day!

As above.

/starts rant

Why? Here it goes.. It was raining today. It wasn't an ordinary rain. The wind was so strong that a shelter alone, wasn't able to cover me fully. It was raining so heavily that you could not see the buildings. I was paranoid for a second.. I really thought it was a disaster or something. But well, the weather ended kinda fast..

While at school, Miss Pang told a group of selected students (I was one of them.. Unfortunately..) that they must stay back after school every single day from 2.4o/2.00pm to 5.00pm, 6th to 23th October. Which immediately concludes.. No study break for these selected students. Now, with the afternoon consultations, workshops and APs, there would be clashes for these students.. Honestly, I feel that all these extra lessons are just being stuffed into our schedule, without thinking. To add-on, the after-school self-study at the heritage room, well, was really bad.

It was so warm, with only two fans. The lights were so glaring, and releases heat as well. The tables were so DAMN small. The tables cum chair, 2-in-1, in the AVA room. It just.. feels really crammed, but I'm able to get accustomed to it. I would rather study in a void deck, despite not having any fans at all. Apparently, there were two groups, one called Ship and the other, Dragon. We were the "Ship", and it didn't feel like one. Wasn't it supposed to be called a Junk? On the other hand, Dragon was studying in an air-conditioned room.

Picture a Ship. It should be cooling, as there are waters everywhere. Picture a Dragon. It breathes scorching flames and it's very warm. Get the irony?

/ends rant

Good night and peace out!

October 4, 2009

Life is beautiful.

Yup, life is beautiful, FOR ME, that is. Whenever things are going badly, I'll always try to make myself happy. Well, definitely not by drinking or any other similar ones.. Life is always unfair, but still, I suck it up, like a sponge. Hmm..

The past few days been rather hectic, well, except for Friday.. Lessons ended quite late on Friday, like around 5 pm. Not to mention, it was already peak hours. As a result, I ended up standing while almost everyone sat on their comfy seats. My legs were aching already, and I had to meet Erin later that night. I tolerated. I reached home, washed up, ate dinner and went to meet Erin. Surprisingly, she brought a friend, a female one. I wondered what was gonna happen.. Cus I have a soft spot for females. At the end of our study session, she suddenly said, "Let's overcome your weakness for girls!". For 30 minutes, we did not have sex (I KNOW WHAT YOU'RE THINKING!). We merely just made eye contact to each other, for 30 MINUTES. I did perspire a lot. After a while, I'm like.. "Hey, it's not that bad after all..". Right now, I think I can face girls with a lot more confidence now! Thanks Erin and her friend, Huiyi (I think?), owe you guys one!

Saturday. Heh. Initially, I thought the F9 students were taught by Mr Auyong, being the only reason why I came yesterday. As Vice-Principal, he should be able to a better job that most teachers right? However, I was tricked. They did not say that the N(A) and Express students would be split up! Seriously! And what's with this stereotype about N(A) students behaving badly? The AVA room is so huge, really, there's no reason why both streams should be split up.. In the end, our teacher was Miss Tho. She was alright, I think? Lots of students told me that she digresses frequently, but yesterday, she digressed a little..

Still, what a shitload of fuck. I don't know.. I just hate being tricked, that's all.

The world is suffering now.. Tsunamis, earthquakes, MISSILES BEING FUCKING LAUNCHED IN NORTH KOREA. Seriously, were the North Koreans out of their minds? A single nuclear missile alone could cause radiation up to a thousand folds! You know what? Screw North Korea, and South Korea FTW. What's with all these nuclear businesses?

3 more weeks to O levels.. I'm scared already. 6 years in Gan Eng Seng School, and I'm only doing my O levels now. Lmao. Friends of friends! Please encourage each other to revise! I have to agree with Mrs Tan's quote. Friends succeed together, not alone! Teamwork for the win!

Well, I'm done.
Good night and peace out!

September 30, 2009


Hey you readers! I apologise for taking a break from blogging..

Well, there's not much to say.. Mainly, life after the holidays was pretty much, crazy. After much meddling with Facebook, I found out truly, who are my friends and who are not. It was disheartening but I had to do it. You know, it doesn't really pay to be kind. You get all these shitty returns for what you have done for them. The worst thing is, they don't recognise your efforts. I'm not saying that we should be recognised for every single deed we done, but the least they could do is at least stop being ignorant. I also hate it when people do not say, "Thank you" or whatever after you helped them. It's a simple thing really, but still, basic manners!

4 weeks to sacrifice, and I'll have 3-4 months of gaming! Isn't that awesome? I finally stopped gaming today. Yesterday, I was still playing, and I thought, "I must be out of my mind..". So I started compiling all my notes, so that I'll have an easier time! It sucks to live so far away from school, I wanted to stay at school longer, but 5 pm onwards, buses get really crammed.

Tomorrow's October already. How time flies..

I learned a new quote from a friend of mine!

"Before you start whining about your problem, think of compassion." - Erin Lau

She was rather angry today.. Cus her boyfriend was complaining of the food in a particular restaurant. I guess that's how she came up with the quote.. Haha! Chill Erin!

Well, I'm done!
Good night and peace out!

September 29, 2009

Reopening soon.

Gonna open the blog again after a few more days!

September 9, 2009


Blog on hiatus until further notice.
Might be the last.. I don't know.


September 6, 2009

Worst Sunday evar.

My maid had to attend the church today.. So I was busy doing household chores.

Only then I realize after I finished all my chores how lonely I am. I tried sleeping, but couldn't. I tried playing computer games, but lost my interest soon after. It was so darn boring, with no one to talk to. I logged into MSN, but I couldn't find a person to chat with. So far, the best chat I had was with Muhib, because he's a gamer and I'm one too so there's that common topic to chat about.

The next thing I did was read blogs. Most were dead, most were not interesting and only a handful were engaging. Gosh, that can't even occupy my afternoon. So I started studying, and again, stopped. I have no interest in studying now because I told myself, that I'll start when Monday arrives. I was bored, for the whole afternoon. Then I decided to mod my game, which is The Elder Scrolls IV - Oblivion, but the download speeds for the mods were so crappy, I jizzed.

This had to be one of my most bored Sundays ever.. I tried calling some friends. Erin had to go out with her boyfriend. Justin had to repair his XBOX 360 at some distant shop.. I logged into Call of Duty 4 - Modern Warfare's multiplayer, and I got owned like crazy. I even went to search for more household chores to perform but can't find any. MMORPGs.. Argh, don't even talk about them, they had never made my day ever since extremists started popping out from nowhere.

I gave up and just went down to chill out. Gosh, what's happening to me?

I thought about lots of stuff. I still owe Mum $80 for buying Diskeeper (A defragment program for computers) and $20 for Atlantica Online (I bought it for fun). I have $50 with me now, I still have to trim my hair for $7 at the neighborhood barber. I think I'll return her money at the end of this month. I thought about love (Lol, seriously). I seriously think I'm desperate for love (Not sex). I just want to love someone, care for someone and buy gifts for her. But before that, I think there's is something wrong with me.. Maybe that thick tyre and a pair of male boobs? LOL.

Then I thought about Prom Night. The thought about attending a formal occasion sends shivers down my spine. I don't know what to wear! I wanted to wear a pair of dark jeans, a dark shirt with sleeves and white leather shoes. I have to purchase a belt as well.. It sucks when you don't go out often and always wearing the same sets everytime. If only secondary school here is like high school in the US. That would totally rock.

After all that thoughts.. I just walked around. Nothing much, no clouds, nothing. It was so damp and cold that it seemed like I'm in a post-apocalyptic age. Talk about Fallout 3.. Damn, I hope our future isn't like that.. I walked up thinking how my maid would be doing. She's still so weak, yet she has to send money to her family in Manila and then attend church. She went home early, feeling dizzy as usual. But she's stronger than ever!

Facebook is also rather boring now.. That's nothing much to do though.. Doing quizzes most of the time, posting my status (And nobody really gives a damn..) and accepting friend requests. I logged into Friendster, and it's pretty much dead. Then now, I'm watching Charlie's Angels - Full Throttle on Channel 5, which I watched like umpteen times..

MAN.. The most boring Sunday I ever had.

Good night and peace out!

September 5, 2009

Can't sleep.

Yeah, I can't sleep.
A lot's been bugging me lately.
I shall use this September holiday to regain my composure.
Heh heh.

But.. Don't you think that for the rest of our lives, we'll be packed with work all day long? Think about it, if you're a male, you have to be the sole breadwinner of the family and work your butt off every single day and maybe spend the weekend with your family. If you're a female, you either work or care. Unless you have a child, you'll be working as well. So it's likewise for male and female. So the only period where we can enjoy life to the fullest is after our retirement. Life is weird, really.

Still, you have to be happy with what you are doing. As long as you love your job, nothing matters right? Haha..

I always wonder what the future holds for me.. Will we be living in a robotic and futuristic world, where traditions are vanished, humans evolved into cyborgs. I do not want that kind of life. Somehow, I feel that technology is advancing way too fast. I would rather stick to traditions, than rely on robots all day long. The fruits of hardwork is always sweet!

I have yet to travel.. I want to explore mother nature and its beautiful landscapes.. One day, maybe..

Oh if you haven't read yesterday's post, please do.. It's below.

Good morning (Haha..) and peace out.

September 4, 2009

Stressful week ahead!

So.. Term 3 has ended. I never expected it to be so soon. I'm finally gonna take my O levels in a month's time. Time had been a bitch. Simply put, time was insufficient. I have yet to brush up on my Humanities, Maths and Chemistry. I have no problems with the rest, just those 3. Gonna exercise as well, to try and lose as much pounds I can before the prom night. Btw, I know it's unusual of me to say this, but if anyone needs a studying partner (Although I'm not much of a help, cus I suck at those 3), please hit me up. Preferably afternoon till night. I'm a quiet guy so you can ensure silence. (Of course, if you have no interest in revision, don't bother asking me out)

Alright. Enough of that.

I had my English papers today. Paper 1 was so-so. The questions were suitable for my current situation, and I chose question 1, which was a personal recount (One of my favorite questions). I had a lot to write for this question, which resulted me writing 679 words. It's my first time writing and exceeding the word count range. I don't know whether I'll get penalized for it but I certainly put in my 100%. Situational writing was a change.. The format was in speech form. I was glad, because I was left with so little time and my hands were aching badly. I managed to finish both sections in time, I did a word count but did not have enough time to scan for errors. Oh well..

Headed up to the library for a lil chill out session, only to realised that I was a few minutes late for the next paper. I'm sure I was not informed that the paper will start at 10.20am, maybe I was sleeping. Paper 2 was a pain in the ass. I managed to answer all the questions, but I'm certain I'll fail paper 2 ONCE AGAIN. I wrote my summary, in a rather robotic response. Once again and again, insufficient time for checking right after I finished my summary. Sucks to be me, right?

Went back home for a lil afternoon nap. I remembered what Mrs Benjamin told the class during the workshop. That if you took afternoon naps, you're most likely to fall asleep during that period of time. Having heard that, I took my final afternoon nap. I decided, NO AFTERNOON NAPS THIS HOLIDAY! I hope to abide by it.. Sheesh.

I'm done here.

Good night and peace out!

September 3, 2009

Lucky? Or not lucky?

Happy Birthday Jiemin! Best wishes and best of luck for your O levels!

Anyway.. Back to today.

I was waiting for a bus for like 20 minutes. It was really long and the bus stop was accumulating numbers. The first bus came, and guess what. I was left behind! I have no choice, because if I waited for another bus to arrive, it would be 10 pm already. As you see, taking buses isn't easy, and there's only like a 20% chance that you'll be left behind (Like me). I had to take a cab instead. The cab fare costs a whooping $9, inclusive of some peak hour charges, and it should be around $10. Seriously, I should start taking the MRT whenever there's a time constrain. And great, there goes my weekly pocket money. Oh well, life's like that. But on the bright side, I had a great chat with the cab uncle and he gave me some encouragement for my upcoming examinations! How nice!

Today was my combined science practical. I have to admit, it was pretty hard. The Physics practical was a bit tough to understood at first, and I took quite a while. It has a similar concept to what I done in the past, with some alterations. I already lost a mark, because I forgotten to leave my recordings in 3 significant figures. I might get dissed by Mr Chan again, who knows, like that time during the single period Physics, I got dissed because I drew the wrong axis. It was embarrassing and not to mention, people around me were laughing. It's probably a tactic used so that you'll never commit the same mistake again. Somehow, I did it again. >_>

Chemistry practical was alright. It's straightforward, it's only that I can't answer the theory questions. Other than that, it was fine. I went out of the lab looking like some guy who failed his O levels.. Rofl.

Went for the English workshop after my lunch. Communication failure, because some people told me it was 12 noon, and some 12.30 pm. As usual, her lesson was awesome. This is what life should be about, fun and laughter. But I was so tired after that. Maybe the laughter was too epic for me..

Went home after that.

Alright, I'm done!

Good night and peace out!

August 29, 2009

Be satisfied.

Be satisfied that you are spending money while others can't.
Be satisfied that you are able to eat while others can't.
Be satisfied that you are able to see a doctor while others can't.
Be satisfied that you gotten good grades while others struggle.
Be satisfied that you are able to use all of your five senses while others can't.
Be satisfied that you can travel while others can't.
Be satisfied with your looks because others can't wish for their looks.

And most importantly..
Be satisfied that you are alive because there are others suffering out there..

In short..
Too much of a good thing isn't good.
Be satisfied with what you have now and quit whining.

And. No. I'm not pointing this out to anyone. I just feel that we.. the people need to be more compassionate..


August 27, 2009

Interesting day.

As September is approaching.. I shall post my September wallpaper now!

I found it be really cool. A blue DNA ribbon, it just looks so fluffy.

Anyway, back to today.

This morning, someone was really elated. He told me something, and then I understood. How fun life can be! Haha!

I was literally, rushing my D&T folio. I was too anxious that I even forgot to bring along my phone cable for transferring pictures. I had to instead ask Jiemin to bring a spare for me (Thanks Jiemin!). My folio was almost done. It was a rushed effort, which would end up messy and with occasional mistakes. But well, I have to suck it up, because the deadline is so near.

The Science teachers kept reminding us of the practicals. Mr Chan gave us some "useful" hints, Ms Mah had a change of mood today. Seriously, I'm sure someone do noticed Ms Mah's change in attitude today. It was so obvious. Maybe she prefer teaching a hyperactive class? I heard she used to teach a class like us as well. What a change.. If she's happy, all is well.

D&T was up. Rushin' and gushin'..

After D&T was assembly. It was probably our last. I found the skit rather boring. Maybe because I was sitting next the entrance, I don't know. I'm pretty sure I didn't laugh most of the time. Or maybe I watched too much Shane Dawson videos. *grins*

The English workshop was next. As usual, she was funny as hell. Yep, Mrs Benjamin. This workshop should have been English SSP all along. Rather than doing all the boring, generic stuff, we were given fully detailed explanations by Mrs Benjamin herself and I'm able to understand it. Seriously, she should just spread her skills around. Everyone in Singapore might pass, rofl. But honestly, she's that damn good. Anyone beg to differ?

I felt I shouldn't post this.. But maybe it's just for laughs..
I was at the bus stop, standing with my folio and listening to music. Then this girl came along and stood around me. She went back and forth, and was standing REALLY close to me. Gosh. You know, I'm really shy towards girls. So.. I was perspiring all over and my heart beated real fast! I was like, "OMG. Am I gonna die or something?". Finally, she boarded a bus. Woah, this is one experience I'll never forget. And.. I had better get over my weakness against girls otherwise, I'm not gonna make any new friends in Poly.. *bangs wall..*

Well.. I'm tired and I'm gonna sleep.

Good night and peace out!

August 25, 2009

Oral, oral, oral, ORAL! POPSICLE!

Please don't mind that.. POPSICLE on my blog title. It's there to bring in the blizzard.

Okay, whatever. The emphasis today, you might have guessed, is the O level Oral examinations! It's fucking O level, so why the hell would I not be nervous? It's not like Mother Tongue, where you're allowed a second chance (Shit like this don't come by easily, so cherish it). There were mock Oral examination stations during the 4 periods of English. Really, IT HELPED MANY PEOPLE. The class should thank Mr Siew for helping us in any ways possible, and the two teachers who came, Mr Lam and Mrs Roy. If not for them, I would be dripping balls during the examination..

As for the Oral and all that jazz, it was pretty difficult. Compared to the past 5 days' topics, today was definitely way more difficult. The picture was hard to describe.. Conversation, I probably gonna score really low for it. STILL, WHATEVER IT IS.. I tried my best. I kept my cool, prevented myself from being shaky and nervous. You know, I think I did a pretty good job. But results talk louder than predictions.

So.. I have to just suck it up, like a real man. It's over, dude. The next obstacle is the D&T O level submission, which is THIS FRIDAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY! WHAT THE FUCK! There's some touching up left.. Binding the folio and stuff will be on Thursday.. Gosh gosh..

*headbangs with a bolster to the maximum!*

Good night and peace out!

August 22, 2009

Awesome day.

I went to school for an English workshop. It was just awesome. To those who went there, don't you wish you had her as an English teacher? I personally would want that.. She jokes frequently to keep us alive, and she speaks fluently.

After that, I went to Tiong Bahru's KFC with Derrick and Hock Zheng. They were speaking so much Chinese, that I felt left out! I just listened to my MP3.. Haha.

After I reached home, I took a seat at the park and just gazed at the greenery. I kept thinking. I'm a tad too serious nowadays. My maid's surgery wasn't a life threatening one, yet I panicked so much. It was successful, and probably be discharged after a few more days. She had Appendicitis and Diabetes which she hid from me for quite a while. I'm bottling up my personal feelings, day by day, and it's probably filled to the rim already. Lol. I had to spill it one day.. Maybe I shall wait for the time to be ripe.

To Chungaik, I apologize if I failed to understand you. I tried too hard. But if you need a listening ear, there's always one here. I hope you'll solve your problem soon.

I PUT ON THE BIGGEST SMILE TODAY. And I'm elated all over.
I'm stressed no more.. Awesome, now I can focus on my studies.

Good night and peace out!

August 20, 2009

I'm sad.

My maid was admitted into the hospital this morning. I was devastated. She vomited this morning, but I couldn't help her up because I had to attend school. I called my mother when school was almost finishing and she said she had some problems in her appendix area. Probably near the stomach area.

Some of my friends may think.. She's only your maid.

She's not just A maid. She's been with me ever since I was born. She had been taking care of me, enduring all my nonsense and so much more. She's a one of a kind, because I have been hearing bad news about maids in the past years. A maid is still HUMAN, and for that, treat her like one.

I'm sad because.. she had to undergo a surgery when she's already in her 50s. I'm afraid.. I need a listening ear so much.. I don't know. I'm totally distracted now.. I can't even do my D&T folio properly.. O level submission date is just next week.. I can't believe this is happening..

Please get well, Aunt. (I called her Aunt because I accepted her as part of my family)

May God bless you.

August 17, 2009


This morning, I heard from Zhao Liang that Amritpal passed away. From what I heard, it was due to a blood vessel which burst, probably in his vital organs. I wished it wasn't true. At first, I really thought he was joking. It's supposedly real. Even Asha comfirmed it too. Sigh. I still remembered when he kept calling me "Rambo! Rambo!" like mad! HAHA! He even whacked me a couple of times. I got to know him through Scouts, and then again through Karim (Lol).

As an aquaintance of his, I would like to send my condolences to his family and friends.

Rest in peace, Amritpal.

August 15, 2009

Very humid.

It's been rather humid nowadays. I even thought I'm the only one who feels warm. Well, judging from my temperatures, my average would probably be 37.1+. To add-on, I'm living at the highest storey of my flat, which means my flat is closer to the sun. Yes, it's so damn hot. With my fan turned on the highest speed, I'm still perspiring all over.

This morning, my maid was pouting. One of my neighbors scolded her for placing a broken chair outside. I was the one who placed it outside. Well, my old chair broke and I was awaiting a new one to arrive. The neighbor stated that if the chair catches fire, we will all die. Like seriously? I'm sure the fumes will float upwards, and not downwards eh. But who the hell dies from a burning chair? If you smell the fumes, don't tell me you're gonna sniff all of it and just die like that? That's bullshit! It's not a plastic chair, it's a chair made of black leather, that's all. Like H1N1 isn't enough, people had to get all paranoid over a damn chair. -.-"

I have no idea what's happening in my neighborhood. In the dead of the night, the flat below mine was drilling! For what? I have no idea! It was like 12 midnight! Can't he drill in the morning or something? Why must he drill in midnight? Lmao. He was drilling for 10 minutes straight, and my mum couldn't sleep at all. The next morning, when I went down, I saw black paint smeared all over the driller's flat. Well, someone had to do it after all.. Crazy fella.

My next door neighbor's wife had breast cancer. The thing is, she's pinning all her hopes of getting money for her treatment into 4D lottery. She's outrageous at times, fancy spending $44 on 4D during National Day. I don't know how I can help.. I have my own financial issues, my mum have hers, and my maid too. She's losing so much hair that I almost could not recognize her. Sigh.. I can only just cross my fingers and really pray for her safety.

Money is such a bitch. Saving lives should be priority fucking number 1, not asking for a bunch of notes.. Seriously, fuck doctors who only think of money.

Good day, and peace out!

August 14, 2009

No time for regrets.

What a bad day. I gotten 14/30 for my English situational writing and 21/50 for the common test, I have to go for Oral practice, I got one of the lowest marks for Oral and I can't even recall what essay types are there. Is this what people call reversed psychology? I focused too much on Maths, D&T and Science that my English deteriorated.. It's bad, cus English is very important.

I also gotten a 3/15 for my Physics practical. Damn, double blow much? I can't believe I actually plotted on the wrong axis. I never really committed this mistake before, this was the first. As a result, my calculations were wrong, I don't even get an extra mark for stating the Gradient formula! It's that bad.. For the rest of the day, I had this gloomy expression on my face. The CD lesson did make me relax a lil, cus Miss Pang was naturally humoring us with her sudden high intonations! A good way to end the day, and it's good to see that she doesn't really nag at us anymore.

Also, no time for regrets. I can't be thinking about heading into ITE after O levels.. But it always seem to get stuck in my head. 2 months left for O levels, 1 month left for Preliminaires. 2 weeks left for D&T Folio O levels submission, 1 week left for O level English oral and to be honest, I feel that I should just attend all 4 days of SSP, I kinda deserve it. I'm sure this is what the veterans state as last minute anxiety. I'm feeling it already, even though it's 2 months away.

Well, I'm done here. And remember to mug mug mug! John, you can do it!

Good night and peace out!

August 13, 2009

Awesome song.

I love this song so much! Please enjoy!

Band - Less Than Jake
Track - For The Rest of My Life


I fell asleep last Saturday
Underneath polluted skies
I walked alone in those Jersey nights
And I
Saw the board walk start to fall
The emptiness starts to drown
The quiet corners of this town tonight

Late last night I made my plans
It was the only thing I felt I could do
Said goodbye to my best friend
Sometimes there's no one left to tell you the truth

It's gonna kill me the rest of my life
Let me apologize while I'm still alive
I know it's time to face
All of my past mistakes
It's gonna kill me for the rest of my life

This is my all time low
Somehow it feels so familiar
Somehow it seems so familiar
I feel like letting go
And every second that goes by
I'm screaming out for second tries

Said goodbye to my best friend
Sometimes there’s no one left to tell me the truth

It's gonna kill me the rest of my life
Let me apologize while I'm still alive
I know it's time to face
All of my past mistakes
I've got to live with them the rest of my life

This is the mess I've made
These are the words I can't erase
This is my life support
Shutting down
For the final time
And it twists like a blade
And kills me for the rest of my life

If you won't forgive me the rest of my life
Let me apologize while I’m still alive
I know it's time to face
All of my past mistakes
It's gonna kill me for the rest of my life

It's gonna kill me for the rest of my life [x2]


August 11, 2009

Past Screenshots of favorite games.

The reason I'm posting past screenshots is because today will be the day I'll stop gaming. THIS IS FOR REAL, mark my words. But in the first place, I have no chance to play anyway. I start gaming again after the Os. Time for reminiscence! It will be a boring post for those who doesn't really like online gaming. Oh well!

Twelve Sky 2:

90% Weapon and Armor <3

Granado Espada:

Graphically beautiful game!

Atlantica Online:

Most challenging game I ever played.

World of Kung Fu:

Love my phoenix and my green claws!

That's all.

I'm going to study now. PEACE OUT!

August 9, 2009

What a night.

My apologies for having such a long holiday away from blogging..

I went out with my guild mates today! Went to Erin's house's void deck to play with sparklers with 2 other mates. Zzz, I sorta sparked my own thumb. It wasn't too serious, but it hurts when I touch it. There's this white liquid oozing out of my thumb. Eeeyuck.

Haven't played with sparklers for quite long..

Anyway, watched the National Day Parade at her house too. The march-in was so awesome. Those guys and their white uniforms, it's just so cool. Unfortunately, we couldn't get a ticket because the prices were way too high. Sigh.

Enough with NDP.. About Sports' Fiesta..

It was a disappointment though. It lasted only 3 hours, but somehow, it didn't felt like 3 hours at all. To add-on, there were so much clashes with events that almost everyone was unable to adhere to the plan. I was supposed to play badminton, but Zhi Xun wants to win, so I had to give up my place for Jerome, who was way better than me. I dragged Chungaik along, but in the end, he did not participate much. Sorry dude.

Badminton was awesome, Zhi Xun won his singles, Jerome & Vishnu won their mixed doubles, we lost our female singles (No idea where the girls went, probably floorball) but Zhi Xun is able to enter the finals. Kudos! Sigh but how ironic. I've been waiting for years to get inside a badminton CCA, and all the time, my requests were ignored. Talk about helping me to get a CCA.. Utter bullshit.

I think 5B will not be able to win this year.. The enthusiasm is so low. Floorball won I think, judging from Zhao Feng's facebook profile. Awesome.. But I wonder what is the sports class of the year's criteria. *crosses fingers*

What's more interesting is.. I never experienced class teamwork before in my whole life in GESS.. It's like I'm jinxed or something. I was in 1B, 2B and 3B, then after I retained, the class got so united with each other, that I'm jealous. Seriously, maybe I'm really jinxed. Who cares anyway..

Happy Birthday Singapore! 44th huh, hope Singapore truimphs for life!

Good night and peace out.

August 4, 2009


Beautiful but bone-chilling tune.

If only a Xenogears novel was adopted, it would sell like hot cakes. The story was magnificent, almost flawless and bone-chilling at the same time. Even thought it was birthed for the Playstation, despite pixelated graphics, it's breath-taking. Just wished there was a Xenogears remake for the modern consoles..

Whatever, back to topic..

I'm so sleepy today. I can't believe it, really. I slept at 9 am yesterday, but I'm still yawning so much. Ironic thing is, I slept at 11 am, which is much later, and I'm way more awake and attentive. Gosh. That's it, I'm sleeping at 11.

Tuesday. Well..

Short day.. HELL NO. Alright it was rather short, because I finished my Maths classwork during SSP today. I did it rather fast.. I had to start from scratch because I left my work at home. When I finished my work, I had a rather long chat with Mr Kung. It's been a while eh.

He asked me to aim for A2 for O level Maths, which seems ALMOST impossible for me. Look at me, my Algebra sucked MAJOR balls, my only strong topics are Trigo, Mensuration, Data Analysis and just about anything to do with shapes. My initial aim was B3/4, then he gave me that look. LOL. I was trying to convince him that getting A2 isn't my forté. People like Hock Zheng or Beng Shiang could attain an A2 easily, but me? Hell no. In the end, I just said that I'll try my best. Sigh, that A2 is rather tempting though.. But I still have to concentrate on my Humanities..

He also asked whether I missed Scouts. Hell yeah I missed Scouts. I missed carrying staves, sharpening my axe, punishments, marching and especially group cheers, which actually destresses me completely. I quited because I didn't want to do another year of PLC and still attend meetings like normal while seeing my old PLC mates going for venture lessons.. The feeling is very disheartening really. Makes you feel damn low. Even if I returned, not everyone will welcome me with open hands. Black faces, you name them. Once a Scout, always a Scout. Yeah, I still have that Scout in me, but I'm not recognized as one now anyway. Enough with this..

I was smiling while walking home today. I even thought I was crazy. The sky is so blue. It's so damn clear. I just wished I could lie down on a field and just gaze at the skies. Reminiscence much? Yeah, totally. I missed her so much. I just smiled all the way, while listening to Ingrid Michael's The Way I Am, which is what I would do to a girl.

Walked up, rushed into my room, and BAM! FACEPLANT on my own bed. Very comfy. Heh.

I'm done for tonight. Hands getting rather tired.

Good night and peace out!

August 3, 2009

Tired and stressed.

Well well, it's August. 2 more months left to O levels. It's pretty impossible to finish my homework because I reached home everyday at around 7 pm. By then, I'm already so tired. It sucks to live so far.. And to travel during peak hours is a pain in the ass. BUT. 2 months left. It's a struggle for survival. I'll survive this apocalypse. *lmao, sounds so darn epic*

August is here. I'm gonna show off my desktop again. *grins*


My absolute distraction. *runs*

I have another distraction though, though I'm not gonna say it. Don't scold me, lmao.

It's Monday.. And a pretty long day. I had a Chemistry test in the morning. I studied for 3 hours yesterday and then went to play some games. I forgotten everything again this morning and had to perform a last minute revision. Great, just great. I can't believe I forget the facts so easily. Brain power food much? Fish? Chicken Essence? o.O

History and it's boredom. It was a tad too boring today. A clip just doesn't cut it. It was filled with dialogues, faces and vintage music. Why even put the word "War" in Cold War when it isn't a war? Kinda defeats the purpose eh.. Although cold war in terms of English means giving a cold shoulder or something.

Next up was Maths. I have to be really honest about this.. Mr Kung looks rather dull nowadays. Maybe he's tired I don't know. But I feel he should at least make an effort to show a neutral expression or just smile. All of us are stressed. Mr Chui, on the other hand, brings a lil laughter in the middle to just perk up the class. It's a good thing really. Encouragements are a necessity too, not requirements/expectations (Like we haven't heard em' enough already). Kudos to both teachers for their hardwork. It can be seen through their sweaty shirts!

SS up. We were given a lot of answers for SS. It's gonna help a lot. Memorizing blues.. Sheesh.

PE was next. Played badminton for the whole PE lesson. In short, damn tired.

Took a bus and walked home.

That's all. I'm tired!

Good night and peace out!

July 29, 2009


I had a haircut today. I decided to cut my hair because it just looks so bad. Now, it looks worse though. Yep, a bad haircut to go with a bad face. I should just stop trying to look good or what. I was surprised at what I saw today while heading home. I saw a guy who was way fatter than I am, kissing a pretty girl! I couldn't believe it! Now I'm inspired!

I went through my Facebook requests and invitations, and I did a quiz on "The first letter of your lover's name". Yes, yes, I'm very bored, but I'm interested to find out. The result was a letter S. Haha, so true. My first crush starts with S, my first girlfriend starts with S too. I felt rather.. pleased and calm, frankly speaking.

Boring day today.


How to find the fun in studying.. Was in MSN yesterday, chatting with Kaijie.

Anyone! Please show me the fun in studying! *Impossible task*

Good night and peace out.

July 28, 2009


After grabbing pictures from past years for the graduation video..
I just felt.. a bit worried, but yet happy.
Because I read some past posts made by people who updated their blogs frequently.
I'm worried because some of these people still can't forget the past. These people's past were beautiful, memorable and full of happiness. Some were dark, painful and unhappy memories.
I'm happy because these people have learned some of the toughest lessons in life, which makes them mature in a way, though some being naughty and mischievous. You have to be joking if you said that they haven't matured.

I visited many blogs. Especially my own blog, Jiemin's, Chungaik's and Swee Hong's. To these people, I thank you for updating often and keeping track of past memories. It struck me so hard, that I wished that I was still in Sec 3, after retaining, starting all over again. I thank everyone in my class for accepting me, even though I wasn't with the class during the lower secondary days.

As for the graduation pictures, I hope the video would turn out great. With all the 3D/E, 4D/E and 5B pictures compiled, it might be a complicated video.. We'll see then.

GESS 3D, 4D and 5B forever. Rock on.

My arm hurtz.

My arm hurts.. so much. I'm just going to type really less today.

It was because of the badminton game I had during this week's PE lesson. I exert way too much pressure on my arm, resulting in some muscle strain. To add-on, everyone took the better rackets, leaving me with a racket with an extremely loose string and one real heavy racket. Luckily, Boon Hau came and taught me something. Guess what, I spoke in Chinese and he understood. I'm very elated.. Because there was no one to criticize my accent. Yeah, my friends just couldn't give me a simple encouragement for me to speak Chinese. I spoke just one Chinese word, JUST ONE DAMN WORD, and everyone laughs. I'm also supposed to take it as a joke.. Teach me how please.

Phew.. I finally got that off my chest. It was being a prick.

Lastly.. Why the world is so ironic once again? During my ride home, the bus was pretty empty. There was a.. um well, handsome guy sitting across me. He suddenly tripped a girl, who was walking to her seat. I stood up and helped her up, but guess what.. I got scolded! Immediately, WHAT THE FUCK?! shoots my mind. And what she said next was so discouraging.. She said I look like a crook and apparently wanted to trip her. Lmao, she obviously knew she was tripped on her left foot, and I was sitting on the opposite. What she did next was even more stupid. She apologised to the guy who tripped her deliberately! That dipshit was laughing at me, covering his mouth. So much for being kind, and getting scolded for something I did not do.

Seriously fucked up day. My arm gave me terrible headaches, but luckily I was able to tolerate and still end the day properly. And fuck whoever is a wolf in a sheep's clothing.

I hope tomorrow would be a better day. AS ALWAYS.


Good night and peace out.

July 24, 2009

Very lazy.

Lazy day today. Damn, it rhymes. ^^

Okay.. English lesson today was fine. He said something which I really liked. Don't judge a book by its cover. I'm very happy because everyone in the class treats me well, although there are those pesky little bastards outside school picking on me. (Which forces me to put on my killer face.. Lol..) I'm really glad though. *cries, just kidding.*

D&T was next. Didn't do much. Played Pokemon on Mun Tat's phone because my w910i plays really slow. 30 FPS occasionally and 5-10 FPS most of the time, it's almost unplayable. Downside of w910i definitely. I helped to carry everyone's folio and Zul's briefcase.. well sort of.

*skips recess scene*

Physics. Well, this is the first time I gotten 2/15 for my practical and to be honest, I felt like crap. I'm probably the lowest amongst all after looking at my friends' papers. For the whole day, I didn't feel good at all. I tried to smile, but to no avail. Sigh. I had better wake up now.. Practical Electricity used to be one of my strongest topics because of the Chan Detection Centre (Lol) before N levels last year. I had better brush up on it soon..

CD was next. I did some work on traditional games. Nothing much.

Till this point, I already felt like going home. It's Friday, and I just want to sleep. Ate lunch at the canteen, went up to the library, walked around and not progressing at all. I decided to just skip the SSP. I probably get scolded and what not.. But. Sigh. *slaps own head*

In the bus, I was SO DISTRACTED MAN.. I fell down twice, hurting my knee and right arm. And then I had this occassional flu which comes and goes, it appears when I'm sad and depressed but when I'm happy, it's gone. BELIEVE IT OR NOT, it's that spooky.. Thankfully, my injuries weren't that serious, just that I had some pain on my right arm because I kept training for badminton for Sports Fiesta. Now, it's like my right arm's gotten way thicker and bigger than my left. I don't even know why I'm so distracted.. Maybe I need to scream again in a beach.

I went home, and slammed my face on the comfy bed. AHHHH. It just feels so nice.. Nothing like a quick nap after a day.

There are so many things I wanna say, but I could not type it here. So I decided to keep a journal for my personal feelings. It might be better if I just bottle it up, and just endure. Yeah, I should do that. All these little things..

Sigh, you know, if only I was born a year later.. Nah, nevermind.

Good night and peace out!

July 23, 2009

Thurs.. Day..


Gosh, is there any kind of medicine or technique to prevent me from yawning even after sleeping for 6 hours? Yawning is so contagious, really..

Well, yeah, today is Thursday. Tie Day, English SSP, Double Science Day, D&T Day. I went to school a tad too early. It was around 6.30 am. It was so dark, because nobody came to school yet. When I reached the classroom, I meddled with the doors and found out that the back door was unlocked! You seriously have no darn idea how happy I was to have found that out. Beats waiting for a key for 30 minutes.

*skips all boring lessons*

The class had to do an English common test today. It, once again, took us by surprise. First was oral, then this. Well, Miss Pang recently pasted the common test schedule on the notice board so there won't be any surprises anymore! The passage today, was seriously disturbing. It's about an infamous mosquito disease called Malaria. The way the author described the disease was so disturbing that it made me paranoid. For once, I thought I did had Malaria. *touch wood*

After the test, I went up to the commerce room for SSP. I was so glad it wasn't Miss Chia who was our SSP teacher. No more 50 word memorizing cum spelling! Instead, Mr Tan came. He revised our oral weaknesses with us, which I find really useful. It's better to secure this bonus marks for English, I feel. Picture Discussion, which is hated by many, wasn't revised though. It was conversation. I had no problem with conversation.. except those extravagant questions which literally freezes your mouth. Lawl.

Took a bus and walked home again.

To be honest, I'm rather happy today. I'm just smiling all the way. Isn't that what life was supposed to be? Enjoying every single day of your life smiling, not frowning. Yep, impossible, but make smiling a daily chore!

AND! Please comment! If you're reading this blog, do comment to say hello and say anything about the latest posts! It keeps me going, y'know? GO!

Good night and peace out!

July 22, 2009

Tired. Tired.

I went home, tired, listless, whatever. Cus' I've been carrying this big ass of mine. Actually, I'm referring to my bag (Cus' when I'm carrying the bag, it lands on my ass). I'm supposed to bring my books home because the Mother Tongue students were having their listening comprehension earlier today. I did not go for it.. cus' I'm kinda like a CLB *graduate*. Lmao. WANNA SEE? I still have that orange certificate. It says PASSED. Muahaha. Proves that my Chinese ain't that bad. Just needs a lil tweaking here and there and walah!

YEAH whatever.

I just finished watching a Korean drama today. It's Sweet 18. <- Linky
Do click on the link to watch it, and don't worry, it's not some booby trap or something. Hilarious show, even with only 16 episodes, it felt like a really long drama. Do watch it and make your funny bones tingle!

And an OST from the drama.


ALRIGHT. I'm done for today. I should go and study now. Tomorrow would be a really long day for me, Supervised Study blues.. Oh wait.. It's goddamn English tomorrow.. GREAT. 50 more damn words to be tested for spelling. GREAT, just great.. *bangs wall and drop dead*

Good night and peace out.

July 20, 2009


My eyes felt like there's salt in it.
My head felt really heavy.
My feet gotten all red and painful.
My back felt like I just carried a person from Little India back to my home.
My forehead was stinging, no idea why.
Every part was affected, except for my hands and arms.

Yeah, today I tried to be a smart-ass. I carried my bag which was really heavy and walked home from Little India. It was good exercise but my back was excruciating. The initial reason for me to walk home was because it was peak hours. It was 6.15 pm then. As expected, the 131 bus was filled to the maximum. I had to walk home, because I already missed two buses. I was pouting, though it seems really embarrassing.

You know, I wished I was actually carrying someone on my back. You know, like those dramas, where some girl broke her heel or shoe and that lucky ass gets to carry her on his back. Drama events are just.. too good to be true. I watched too much, maybe. It's time I've to be a little more realistic. Still, I felt as if someone was on my back, because most of the time, my stance was at a 135° angle. My bag was way too heavy, and thus that outcome.

As I approached the elevator, I slammed my head into a corner. I was so fucking tired. I've been walking for the past 15 minutes. If without my MP3 player, I think I would've died out there. When I finally reached home, I went into my room straight away and gave myself a faceplant on the bed. Sigh, it never felt this good. All these tension, gone in an instant..

*Fuck, I have to read more books.*

Surprisingly, I was full on concentration today. I really paid attention during Maths class. I even finished my classwork on time. It was an awesome accomplishm... or should I say, a start? Yeah, a start on my revision. It's 20th July, and Os are on late October.

Frankly speaking, I have no idea what's right or wrong. I can tell right from wrong, but not differentiate them. It just always seems that you're gonna be dissed at by telling a right from wrong. Which is the reason why.. this world is hypocritical and full of irony. I wonder how people think. How do people become murderers. What gave them the drive to kill? That suicide bomber who sacrificed himself to what? To some towers. How the hell did he get that determination to actually sacrifice himself to kill people? It might be revenge. We're all taught to be compassionate, to be good people. Maybe because these people weren't educated well. But why? No money? Can't the government just provide them with a free education? These government people are earning lots, but why not help the poor? The poor are such a minority.

And they said, let them be. You fall down, you stand up again. But still, it's never hard to give a push. Some of them lack the foundation and needs to start from scratch. Everyday I look at my class, there's a minority who aren't studying hard enough (Including me). I'm ashamed of myself, not making full use of my education. There are people out there, wishing to be educated. WISH, you know?

Wow, I have no idea that I typed this much.. Seriously.

Somehow, I think I woke up. Actually, it was due to someone's encouragement. It was just that ONE sentence of encouragement which pumped me up. You know, little things does wonders. I'm not gonna reveal his/her name, but a million thanks to you. To people out there, if you still consider yourself a friend, drag your friend to study, no matter what. Give them your full support and help them in times of need. That's what I call a friend, someone who never gives up, though showing care and concern indirectly.

ZZZ. I must stop..

Good night and peace out.

July 18, 2009

I don't know what to type..

Yeah, seriously, I have no idea on what to do update about..

Well.. These few days in school been rather crazy. These supervised study programmes.. Well, it's good, if without the noise. While in the library, you'll never fail to hear someone talk every second. Every few seconds or minutes is alright, but every second.. Gosh. The English supervised study wasn't like the other days.. It was more like AP. The SSP group were supposed to memorize 50 idiotically difficult words and together with its totally-defeated-its-purpose definitions. Not to mention, it's gonna be like this for the next remaining weeks.. Damn.

So much homework.. I have to hand up my D&T folio by this Monday or else I'll be screwed for preliminaries. And this goddamn difficult Sports School Maths paper 2.. I've been raking my brains all over for the past few days.. All these stress are crawling up my ass. BUT IT'S WORTH IT. To get into a Polytechnic.. Damn, it's more than worth it. A lil sacrifice to my time is fine.

Wow.. I have not passed up that homework that Mrs Tan gave. Wonder what she'll do to me. I'm not getting the hang of doing reflections.. Oh well.. Let the flames begin. Lmao, Paramore..

Okay. I'm done.

Good night and peace out.

July 15, 2009


It's been quite a while eh?

I haven't been blogging, well because I have been playing games. But currently, I stopped playing games. I didn't have any time to update because I always reached home late, at around 6.30 pm or later if during peak hours. It's due to the supervised study programme.

So to cure the stress..

I watch this video.

That guy. Man, he's amazing. His voice is really unique. And that girl, man, hotness. Overall, awesome vid. Makes me wanna learn the acoustic guitar. Well..

O level preliminaries are reaching! MUG HARD!

Good night and peace out!

July 9, 2009


Girl: Hey, may I ask you a question?

Boy: Sure!

Girl: Do you, IN YOUR OWN WORDS, love me?

Boy: Err..

The above conversation happened when I was in the bus. I had forgotten what day it is. I found it rather hilarious though and the boy was totally speechless!

Whatever. I wasn't updating for the past few days because of.. well.. games. Gahhhh, what the hell. I seriously have no idea why I'm still playing games. Gosh, it might actually take a while for me to abandon my computer. The supervised study session next week might be the first stepping stone.. I hope so.

I've been yawning everyday. I slept at 11 pm everyday. Is there something wrong?

The week is coming to an end soon.. I hadn't learned much. H1N1 is still around, which seemed to be a really tough cookie. It's been raining for the past few days too..

I also flipped through the school magazines from the past years. Gosh, I really missed those days when I was in Secondary 1. Those times were the best.. International Friendship Day, where my class had to set up a stall to sell stuff and it was so fun! I was a crybaby back then and I still remember those boys who bullied me. They changed into new leaves, which is really awesome. It is really damn awesome to see a mischievous boy changed into a real man. Too much memories and now, I'm here, about to sit for my O level examinations and finally leaving GESS, be it ITE or Poly. 6 years man. I have been in GESS for 6 fucking years. My memories in GESS will never die. Ever.

Random reminiscence..

Good night and peace out!

July 3, 2009

Long weekend, before living hell.

Yeah, I must enjoy this weekend before the living hell steps in. The supervised study thing, which ends everyday at 5 pm. Now, that's a bummer. 5 pm everyday, which means I'll get squeezed in the buses. Some suggested that I take the MRT, but I never liked taking it. I might just test it out for 2 days, one day for buses and one for trains.

As the supervised study thing, I'm quite elated. The fact that I have the biggest distraction in my home, my gaming rig, prevents me from revising. This might actually help me a lot. Better not be too happy yet, who knows what the outcome will be after a day.. There goes my jogging session in the afternoon. Sheesh, I can't wake up at 4.30 am in the morning anymore for some strange reason.. My phone's alarm clock was set at 4.15, 4.20, 4.25 and 4.30, none of it was successful in waking me up. Gosh.. Oh, and 4.30 am is usually the time I start jogging.

I customized my desktop again.. (I love customization!)

This time, I went for a brighter and a more optimistic kind of style. In this case, a wheat field and a beautiful, clear sky. Kinda rocks.

Now for school.. It was pretty short.

Mr Derek Tan did not came to school today, and I heard that it's because of some AYG matters. The class was so elated to know that he wasn't coming, including me, because I have not done my homework yet! Mr Siew came in as a relief and gave us classwork. After that, it was D&T..
VERY IMPORTANT. If anyone has a Microsoft Office CD (Prefably Vista compatible!) of maybe.. 2005 or later, please let me borrow it! (Hell, I haven't tried 1998+, maybe it should work in Vista too). I need so it much, for my D&T presentation boards, which is 80 marks! I have no money to purchase a CD, because I used all my money for printer ink. Please, if you do have a Microsoft Office CD to lend, please comment below, thanks!
I slacked during D&T, because I hadn't printed out my stuff yet. Mun Tat as usual, was singing songs, some song from Prince and Eye of the Tiger. Haha, Faris too, sang along. What a duet. Somehow, the oldies are attracting me already. When D&T ended, I came back to class and slacked. Next was Physics, it was only one period and after recess. The lesson started pretty quick, and then we were going through the Re-test and Vector papers. Then it was CD, watched some powerpoint on AYG once again.. Well.. Went home soon after.

I'm done for today!

Good night and peace out!

July 2, 2009

Distracted much?




Never laughed this much.. Haha!


July 1, 2009


Oh Em Eff Gee.

I can't believe what happened in the bus today. It was in the afternoon. I was heading home after school, took the 131 bus. At the back of the bus, there were a group of students, probably upper secondary boys, watching something. It was porn. Their reactions are so hilarious and definitely priceless. It's like they have never seen a nipple before in their lives. I can't describe their reactions well, I can only think of "Over-reactive". Damn, I was laughing my ass off while walking home!

It's Wednesday today.. So much happening at once.. Michael Jackson gossips here and there, gosh, just let him rest in peace already. I can't believe people are still talking about his color, his faults and more. Such pricks. H1N1 virus status seems to be getting worse, yet people still aren't covering their mouths while they cough. Sigh.

Today was a fine day. It rained, and it feels really cool. It's so much better than the hot weather recently. The first lesson was CD. I was nominated (What a great word..) to be in a supervised study group. It's totally fine with me. I hope it works out fine.. Mrs Tan, our principal, came into our class and gave us a polite lecture. Sigh, only 3 months left, it's starting to get really tight now.

Next was English. Wow, I can't believe Mr Gary Lam is back! But he isn't teaching Humanities.. I think Mr Tan's lessons are sufficient enough for us, honestly.. Still, more help is always welcomed. Up next was Chemistry.. I wasn't paying attention to the lesson, something outside was distracting me. It was a pleasant sight though. Sigh, wished time would pass quickly..

Then came the dreaded, 5 periods of Maths. Actually, it wasn't as bad as the people thought. Those 2 hours passed by very quickly. Mr Chui (I think that's how it's spelt) was very clear in his explanation although some of his methods are very complicated, he tries to help in any way possible. Awesome, indeed. I feel that he should go really in-depth for each question in the paper, if possible. Showing the workings and answers just doesn't cut it. People are just gonna copy and leave the paper lying around.


I see trees of green.. Red rose too..
I see em bloom.. For me and you..
And I think to myself.. What a wonderful world..

I see skies of blue.. Clouds of white..
Bright blessed days.. Dark sacred nights..
And I think to myself.. What a wonderful world..

The colors of a rainbow.. So pretty.. In the sky..
Are also on the faces.. Of people.. Going by..
I see friends shaking hands.. Sayin.. How do you do..
They're really sayin.. I love you.

I hear babies cry.. I watch them grow..
They'll learn much more.. Than I'll never know..
And I think to myself.. What a wonderful world..

Sigh. This song makes my day. Cheers me up after a f@#ked up day.

Good night and peace out!