In control.

Hi there.

I'm back from a 30 minute jog around my house. YEP. I'm getting to my regular schedule for slimming down. I need to get at least Silver for my NAPFA test, which is due in 3 weeks. It seems impossible though, still I'll try every means to perform at least 2 pull-ups, or 3? Gonna cut down on fried food from now on.

Today was a really warm day.. Everyday is warm.. Not to mention, my theory lesson today was conducted in a non air-conditioned room.. I'm pretty sure the room I used and the room next door are the only non air-conditioned rooms. Theory's pretty boring today. I was mostly staring into blank space and probably lamenting once again. After school, I went with a friend to his personal gym to of course, box my frustrations out. There's a million frustrations in my mind, but I could only take them out little by little.

Went home to take a bath and rushed to City Square Mall to meet up with some friends for dinner. Nothing much happened though. My friend was right, I really felt like a total stranger just now. Time really changes stuff, fast. I guess I can't increase my self-esteem when my self-esteem is already that low.. How to increase self-esteem.. Hmm. My Chinese sucked so hard, I still find it hard to communicate despite having tried to speak more Chinese. I'm always a little afraid that my Chinese would sound lousy in front of my ITE classmates.

I'm sure I have transformed into an emotional person. I'm trying hard to kick the silent habit, and try to be louder.. Man, John, stop dwelling in the past and be hyper! Yeah!

Thanks for reading. Peace out.

A blast from the past.

Hi there.

I had Sports and Wellness in the morning. I decided to work out in the gym with a friend, talking about his Muay Thai habits and some of my own. I felt stronger after the workout and slack a little after that.. The early morning was pretty gloomy. Then some game making lessons again. If you were wondering, I was making an arcade game which has an airplane shooting at enemies from a bird's eye perspective. The whole session was pretty fun and hilarious thanks to the partner beside me, haha.

After school, we had to attend some kind of Youth Olympic Games 100 pledges to support Singapore. The TV crew came, recorded clips of basketball and badminton training. During basketball, a classmate of mine was in it too and the most awesome part was when he was starting to shoot a ball, practically everyone cheered for him! I was happy for him too, although he jerked a little but I'm sure he's pumped, haha. It also made me recall unhappy stuff.. During Secondary school, I was a chairman in Secondary 2. When I was having my investiture, my class just clapped for me. I was staring at my class, smiling regardless. The other classes get the loudest cheers and they certainly looked happy.. Another time was my time as a Scout. I was receiving my Bronze service award as my first award in my whole life. All I get was basically forced cheers from my Scout mates.. My class didn't cheer for me at all.. Till that day onward, I lost my determination to actually earn awards for myself. I'll never forget it. I admit, I was pretty jealous today, but I had been jealous for just about my whole life.. I'm tired of being jealous already. So yeah, I'll just keep silent.

I also did some kind of YOG dance cheer.. It was pretty cheesy though, but kinda fun. I decided to drop the idea of joining badminton.. Badminton training is on Mondays and Fridays, but I have lessons on Monday. If I want to join something, I want to be fully dedicated, not like this man.. Once again, another chance at joining badminton has been blown. Not to mention, I need to join a competition as part of my portfolio for enrolling in Polytechnic in the future. Sigh. I also decided to drop the idea of purchasing XBOX360 parts, PSP and hoody, I'll just purchase a pair of headphones instead, since I'm low on money already.

Well, I'm going end here.

Thanks for reading. Peace out.

Just another warm day.

Hi there.

As the title suggests, today was ANOTHER warm day. It was showering during the late afternoons, but it doesn't change the temperature in any way! Whenever I'm inside the air-conditioned rooms, I feel so cold, despite being fat. I'm gonna have to purchase a jacket, probably a hoody for fashion purposes.. Otherwise, I'll get a chill.

Nothing much today.. Just some Photoshop lessons.

And when it rains,
Will you always find an escape?
Just running away,
From all of the ones who love you,
From everything.

Thanks for reading. Peace out.

I learnt a lot..

Hi there.

There were several talks conducted in my school today..

It seemed to that the people at ITE are really concerned with our future, having like 5 talks on success and anything relevant in 4 weeks. But compared to Secondary school talks, these talks really gave me the urge to work hard. We CAN actually look up to someone as an inspiration. There was a brass ensemble quintet performing for us in between the talks.. It felt really soothing to the ears, something you feel while eating at a posh restaurant, enjoying your food and listening to the wonderful jazz music. Haha, it's been a really long time since I ate at a posh restaurant.

I had a drawing lesson today, on human anatomy. We were supposed to draw human forms using guidelines and whatever. In the past, I drew weapons, monsters and even visual effects, but I can't draw a human right, haha! I'm also seeking help from a friend pretty soon.. I really want to make my own art, purchase a scanner and edit it with Photoshop or whatever.

So much to do man.. Fix my friend's XBOX360, purchase broadcasting hardware, purchase more of my favorite old games, learn drumming for once, learn Melbourne Shuffle and breakdancing (Yes, I'm dead serious..) and lose as much weight as possible in Fitness club. Apparently, I waited for the Badminton in-charges to inform me of my application status, it's been quite long already.. So maybe, I'll just stick to Fitness club.

That's all for today! I'm dead tired and I'm gonna crash in soon.

Thanks for reading. Peace out.

What to type..

Hawt.

Hi there.

It's a warm day, isn't it? I already felt the heat this morning, all the way till evening. Goodness gracious. It just doesn't rain at the most required moment. Sigh.

I was kinda shocked that hair IS still an issue in ITE MacPherson. I thought I could finally keep long hair, but no, it looks like I still have to wait 2 years or after National Service. Blame myself for not studying hard in Secondary school, then again, I wasn't THAT determined to do well anyway. Still, why is hair always an issue? People WILL eventually keep long hair anyway.. Zzz. I really can't wait for Polytechnic years.. I really want the busy schedules the students have and having my own laptop as well.. Sigh. *greenface*

There's nothing new today in school though. If I were to talk about ITE life everyday, you'll be bored as shit.

I'm bored, gonna play some games.

Thanks for reading. Peace out.

If I'm sick, would you please give a damn?

Hi there.

Haha.. I've been ill for a week. First, I had a soar throat which evolved into dry coughs. Then it evolved into diarrhea and I had liquid stools yesterday. Not to mention, my muscle pain from the previous training really added to the pain. Just yesterday, I was chatting with an old friend of mine, who really needs to find a new meaning to, "show care and concern".

If your friend in MSN chats with you and said that he/she is ill, what would you say?

"Get well!", "What illnesses are you having?", "Oh dear, are you alright"? or the rarely used one, "You need me to accompany you to the doctor?".

No. He said..

"Dude, I had worser illnesses than what you're having now, suck it up man.".

Of course, being the "good" friend that I am, I just let him have his "drill instructor" way. Seriously man, it's not boot camp, why is he being all cold about it? Asking me to "suck it up man" isn't gonna make me feel any good then it is already. I had like 6 liquid stools yesterday and he asked me to suck it up. Really.. Don't apply this stupid logic about, "I had worser whatever..". It's as good as saying..

"Oh your fish died? My fish died too. Just suck it up man."

Not everyone is the same as you. You can't expect everyone to feel the same way as you.

If I'm sick, would you please.. at least, give a damn?

A simple, "Get well soon" does wonders, if you have no darn idea.

Sigh.

Thanks for reading. Peace out.

New month.

Hi there..

Well, if it isn't May. The month before a long holiday, before examinations and of many celebrations. So far, April's been a good month. I loved every moment during school, learned new things and made new friends (Or maybe, new acquaintances), not to mention, more gaming friends. I can see my Steam friends list piling up already!

Making friends was kinda hard. I had to be the one to initiate conversations and then they will start talking. Of course, those good looking people will get all the good stuff. Maybe being nice wasn't a good plan anyway. People love bad people, those who worship Satan, those who worship the terrorists, I'm exaggerating.. I kept thinking about myself for these past few days. I'm even drifting away from my Polytechnic friends further and further away, and maybe to the point that we'll be total strangers. It's part and parcel of life, I know, but it's kinda hard to get used to it.

Although life in ITE was great, life at home wasn't any better. I came home everyday, switched on my computer and just play games. It was just lifeless. Sure, I have a passion for gaming but I can't possibly dedicate my life to gaming. I wished, for the past 3 weeks, you know, to have some friends message me about their life in Polytechnic and of course, go out for a lunch or walk. Only then I found out, they have rather busy schedules and really have no time. Haha, how stupid am I? LMAO.

Maybe my life's gonna stay this way for the next 2 years, and till then, I'll decide whether I'm going to Polytechnic or service National Service.

I hope May's gonna be a good month, although I'm looking forward to the June holidays.

Thanks for reading. Peace out.