Forgive.

Forgive the sun who didn't shine
The sky had asked her in to dine

Forgive the stars that heard your wish
The moon prepared their favorite dish

Forgive the rain for its attack
The clouds have tears they can't hold back

Don't hate the birds 'cause they are free
Don't envy all the things they see

Don't block the wind, but hear its cry
Or else that wind may pass you by

Forgive the storm it means no harm
Could not resist to show its charm

Forgive the Earth that never turns
Don't hate the sun, because too much burns

Life intends to not cause pain
The flowers bloom from all the rain

The storm will come and it will pass
The sun that shines, it grows the grass

The wind it cannot help but cry
The stars at night light up the sky

Forgive the world in which we live
We'll all find peace if we forgive

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; Maybe I wasn't being forgiving for the past few days. I had this flu and a running nose, which made me powerless and weak. I had to blow the mucus out of my nose several times, or rather, excessively. Every single day I returned home, my handkerchief never fails to be wet and filled with mucus. I tried skipping school to see the doctor, but I can't afford to skip any lessons since I only have 5 subjects to pass for my "N" level examinations. Maybe, I'm not matured enough to handle all these stress, that will arrive sooner or later in adulthood.

And hence, the short poem above. I have to thank Suying for reciting me such a wonderful poem, that encourages me and hopefully, heals me internally. Rest assured Suying, I'll definitely give you the best Valentine's ever, in recognition for the priceless values you taught me and the time you spent with me. I had to be the luckiest guy on Earth, to receive you as my girlfriend. And I'll see you on the 14 of February!

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Today marked the end of January, and the day I'll always remember is my birthday. It was the first time, after 8-9 years, that I celebrated with cake and with a candle on top, 3 times on the day! I really have to thank, especially 4D's first couple; Jiemin and Chungaik, Justin and gang, my girlfriend, Suying and all my friends. You guys made a difference in my Life, during my birthday by celebrating it with me. Once again, thank you guys!

Heh. It's not time to die yet.
Someone has to be loved, till the day I die.

And yeah, ever wondered what kind of woman you should get?
Let class 4D teach you!


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And finally, tomorrow's my first time after a year, changing into Scout's uniform and participating in the flag ceremony. I do hope that it will be a breeze, like the old times during 2004 and 2005. I really missed those days.. Tomorrow's going to be rather nostalgic, I guess.

Well, I have to sleep now. In the future, I maybe updating my blog this late, due to the fact that I'm quite sick nowadays (Don't know why I'm still living, haha) and I have to spend time with Suying, because I love her! (Isn't that reasonable enough?)

Okay, alright.
Thanks for visiting and may God bless you!
And Suying, I love you!

Feeling energized.

Good evening!

Well, well, as usual, I met up with Suying at 5am, and chatted for 30 minutes! After that, hugged each other and then went off in the buses. The bus today had an awful stench, it's smelt like someone who never bathe for days. Had to pinch my nose, although it seemed a bit rude, but it was unbearable. After getting off at 131, there was this person smoking, in front of me. Once again, I had to pinch my nose. Damn, pinching my nose two times in the early morning..

Reached school, drew the key, watched people play their Chinese Chess game and just slacked around. The mood today seems a bit dead and the sad atmosphere kind of chills me a bit. But well, I had better look on the bright side of today!

The first two periods were Mathematics. There's a test tomorrow, oh my God! It's definitely tomorrow! So the lesson was a breeze and nothing else, I hope I can pass my Mathematics test tomorrow, hopefully, for the first time! I had been failing Mathematics since Secondary 3, and only passed the End-of-Year examination last year, but still, my overall failed. So yes, this upcoming test is a must-pass! Good luck to the 4D peeps tomorrow, for the test! Mug hard!

After Mathematics were 3 vexing periods of D&T. The whole 3 periods, we are just modifying, making more pages for the project and so much more random stuff.. Slacking is so tiring, really. I have this feeling that my ambition should be changed, maybe designing isn't really my style. Oh well, I have time to think about my future, just not now.

After D&T was Chinese period. Miss Foong kept on telling me to get stuff for her and still said that it was exercise for me! Today, I went down to the general office, with Chungaik (Who sneaked out!) and didn't find any newspapers. At first, we always thought that the newspaper will be in the foyer. But today, it's inside the office! So much for the effort.. Just slacked throughout the lesson.

Recess! Danial played the Russell Peters comedy show on PSP, and plugged the sound into the teacher's console. I don't really understand 70% of the show, maybe I prefer comedies with a bit more actions than words.

After recess was CD period. Haha, Miss Pang really changed a lot, since last year. We stood up for quite long, because Jasper was acting all nerdy and stuff, so yeah. After we sat down, Miss Pang touched on the topic on Relationships. I knew, that I was going to get flamed, iced and blown by everyone in the class, since most of them knew about my relationship with Suying. 4D's very own couple did get a special treatment too! But yeah, I simply just ignored everyone's remarks, not going to repeat the same mistake I made in Secondary 1. We then did a reflection form, on what type of husband/wife we wanted. I only touched on 7 points, with the other 3 blank. I'm not a perfect person anyway, and I don't really expect my future wife to be perfect either..

English was next. We did some oral practice and yeah, I didn't get much participation in it. I think, I only read a sentence, and that's it, while the rest read almost a paragraph or more than 2 sentences. Maybe, Mr Sandhu was searching for weaker students to help, yeah, that must be it. Mr Sandhu's lessons are always full of surprises and mischiefs up his sleeve!

After school, I swept the class, since CLB will start at 2.30pm. I got an hour to spare, so I spent it by sweeping the class, arranging the tables and chairs neatly. I'll predict that this won't last long, and by tomorrow, the class cleanliness will be killed. Yes, I can sweep the class everyday, just for 4D, but most of the students do not even maintain the cleanliness at all, I'll emphasize on the word "MOST", just preventing flame wars. If they don't help themselves by doing a bit of cleaning up, why should I even bother to go to the extent to help the whole class?

CLB started, did a letter writing work and headed home. I bathe at home, took my Mathematics notebook and textbook and went down to the void deck to meet Suying! We studied together for about an hour, stared at the sad clouds and then we went to the market to have our dinner. And, thanks Suying for being such a great study partner! I'll give you a cookie next time! Or rather, a box of cookies! Hahaha! Thanks dear!

And to end it all, some pictures. Yesterday and today.


89 requests in Facebook and still counting. I'm bored.


During PE yesterday, lots of phones right?


$1 each! *psst, the PSP is mineeeeee!* Kidding!


The field me and Suying laid. It had no mud whatsoever!


The shelter, it drizzled a bit..


Sad clouds #1


Sad clouds #2

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FYI, I'll be logging into MSN lesser, since I'm studying most of the time. I'll login into MSN for maybe a few hours, and then logoff. 8 months isn't enough to build up my foundation of all my subjects, so I'll just have to do my best then. You guys should study yeah! 8 months passes by very fast! So mug hard!

That's all for today!
Thanks for visiting and may God bless you!
And Suying, I love you!

Guilty.

I felt kind of hot-headed today.

I met up with Suying at 5am, at the void deck below my house. Then some stranger came and hurled vulgarities at us. Me being a bit hot-tempered, I screamed at him, and with some family cursing. Yeah, he punched my stomach and ran off. What a klutz. I'm guessing that he's drunk judging by his drunken smell and some whiff of vomit coming out of him. But hell, his drunken fist hurts as if your balls are being stretched..

Not to mention, I was already hot-headed in the morning.. And then comes this..

..some people were playing around during PE, and dirtied the back of my shirt. So, I shouted, angrily. While going up to class, Chungaik played around, by bending my left knee. Sorry that I shouted and burst out in front of you, since you did not know that my left knee and ankle were injured. Please forgive me, I'm trying to be happy for the rest of my days, and maybe this just took too much out of me. Sorry again!

It's hard to control my temper, since I try to be happy at all times. Please understand me, okay?

School was normal, as usual. I had a Heart-to-Heart session with Mr Joseph and Miss Pang, after school. It's sort of like a chit-chat session! So yeah, I let out most of my troubles to them, and at least, my heart's less heavier now. Thanks, to both teachers!

Had Scouts today. I was supposed to monitor the Secondary 2s marching performance. All I can say is that they need more practice and there's room for improvement, definitely.

After Scouts, I went to Novena Square to fetch Suying there! We had lunch in LJS, and then walked around Novena Square and United Square. We went back to the void deck, below our houses. Studied for an hour, and then went home! Thanks Suying for teaching the radian conversion, that I flunked today! Hahaha!

Anyway, that's all for today.
Thanks for visiting and may God bless you!
And Suying, I love you!

Two days of fun.

Good evening! Blog, blog, blog.

28.01.08
I went out with Chungaik, Derrick and Jiemin to Mengci's house, to play basketball. The sky didn't look nice at all though, as expected! We just went ahead and played, and after a while, it started to rain heavily. Most of the time, I was on the phone with Suying, while they keep disturbing me! So I always hang up when they get closer or what. NO PRIVACY MAN! I watched my birthday video on Chungaik's phone, hahaha! It's damn funny!

Around 4pm, they wanted to swim in the pool, but it was raining heavily! First, we headed to the pool, and took shelter at one of the tables, with a huge umbrella. Yeah, my flu was somehow getting worser, it's more like it had no chance to recover at all.. As the rain gets heavier, we rushed to a room, which resembles a sauna. We stay there awhile, until the rain stops. And then, they went to the changing room, and I just sat there waiting for Suying's call.

They were playing happily! I wanted to take pictures, but my phone had no space.. I need to buy a new memory card! After that, Kaijie came and we waited for them to finish swimming. Mengci came, and after a while, we went to Tiong for our dinner.

We dined at Mr Teh Tarik! The Prata was awesome, the curry tasted a bit sweet and hot, but it's damn nice! Their Teh Tarik's nice too! After that, the others went home, leaving me with 4D's couple at my hands. *evil thoughts*

Damn, I swear I'll never play in Tiong Bahru's E-Zone ever again. Daytona's machines were crap, Daytona 2's machine had no steering wheel, Daytona 1's machine's brake isn't working, Air Hockey sometimes releases 2 tiles. What the hell man..

After that, we went our separate ways, I rushed to meet Suying! We had a super, funny chat! We laughed until the neighbors below us throw water! LOL. Suddenly, I received a message from Chungaik, which almost spoil my mood! Damn.. Suying even mistaken Chungaik for a girl, and I almost got busted. LOL.

After around 9pm, I went up, took a bath, and slept..

29.01.08
The buses today were super busy.. 131 was full, 139 was full as well. In the end, I did not have a chance to sit down at all.. I was super tired from all the standing up. I was rather confused at people. There was someone sitting in the front seat of the driver's behind, instead of using the exit-entry, he got through hordes of people, acting all mighty and stuff, and got off the exit. In the end, he rather go through a path full of resistance, instead of going down at the empty exit-entry. *learned from today's Physics lesson!*

I got to school today, sweating like hell. After the assembly, we went up for our Chinese lesson. I sat with Chungaik, since we are both from CLB. After a while, the Chinese teacher asked me to help her take the 3G workbooks from her locker.. I haven't even dried myself from my sweat.. Oh well.

Physics was next. Pretty fast and understanding. I managed to get all the concepts into my brain.. But I need more practice in memorizing the formulas.. SUYING HELP ME! SCIENCE GURU!

Recess.. Slacked..

D&T was next. Me, Danial and Mun Tat went down to buy our presentation boards.. While going back, we saw an interesting article in the foyer. I decided to take a picture of it, only to get caught by Mr Kung. I was panicking! In the end, I had to surrender my phone to Mr Kung. I was in temporary depression for the whole 3 periods! LOL. After school, I was supposed to see him, and he was supposed to return me my phone. In fact, he could have kept it forever, and not even give it back to me. Haha, thanks Mr Kung for letting me off lightly. I won't use it in school hours ever again, unless I'm in the toilet! Haha!

I went home, took a bath and went down to find Suying. Oh my God, she laughed like a hyena after hearing my incident.. You're so evil.. Hahahaha. After a while, we laid on the field and gazed at the clouds, and hoped that tomorrow's clouds would be clear and fluffy!

That's all for today!
Thanks for visiting and may God bless you!
And Suying, I love you!

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Current blog song: As Lovers Go - Dashboard Confessional

Lyrics:

She said, "I've got to be honest,
You're wasting your time if you're fishin' around here."
And I said, "You must be mistaken,
I'm not foolin', this feelin' is real."
She said, "You've gotta be crazy!
What do you take me for? Some kinda of easy mark?"

"You've got wits,
You've got looks,
You've got passion,
But I swear that you've got me all wrong."

All wrong
All wrong
But you've got me

I'll be true, I'll be useful, I'll be cavalier,
I'll be yours my dear
And I'll belong to you
If you just let me through

This is easy as lovers go.
So don't complicate it by hesitating.
This is wonderful as loving goes.
This is tailor made,
What's the sense in waiting?

I said, "I've got to be honest,
I've been waiting for you all of my life."
For so long I thought I was asylum bound,
But just seeing you makes me think twice.
And being with you here makes me sane.
I fear I'll go crazy if you leave my side.

"You've got wits,
You've got looks,
You've got passion,
But are you brave enough to leave with me tonight?"

Tonight
Tonight
You've got me

I'll be true, I'll be useful, I'll be cavalier,
I'll be yours my dear
I'll belong to you
If you just let me through

This is easy as lovers go. So don't complicate it by hesitating.
This is wonderful as loving goes.
This is tailor made, what's the sense in waiting?

This is easy as lovers go. So don't complicate it by hesitating.
This is wonderful as loving goes.
This is tailor made, what's the sense in waiting?

This is easy as lovers go. So don't complicate it by hesitating.
This is wonderful as loving goes.
This is tailor made, what's the sense in waiting?

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Sweet song! Gotta love Dashboard and their great song lyrics.

Tired..

Gonna blog more tomorrow.. I'm quite tired now.

There's a slight change to the ending message.. Hahaha.

Thanks for visiting and may God bless you.
And I love you, Suying <3

Gonna live everyday like it's the last.

Good afternoon!

I want to talk about yesterday night. I was unlucky, just my luck I guess. I was shaving my beard, and cut my throat area two times, a small dot-sized cut and a fingernail-long cut which was more painful. I was whining in pain for 30 minutes, it really hurt like mad. When I put some cool face cream over it, I felt a stinging effect, which made the pain worse. But after a while, the pain was gone for good, thanks to the face cream. It's been so long ever since I felt that kind of pain. It's like, my throat area got cut on purpose, there was no pimple whatsoever.

Then when I was about to go to sleep, I knew something was really wrong. I forgot to re-charge my phone for tomorrow. And then, there was a message received, but I did not answer. I found out that she broke up with her boyfriend, and needed a shoulder to cry on. So I met up with her today morning, she cried on my shoulder. It's hard to see you cry, my heart always gets this stabbed effect everytime you cry. I want you to be safe and happy, like you always do. So I wiped her tears, and gave her a cuddly hug to clear all her troubles, for the first time in my Life. She was happy again, and I felt happy too! So I was rather happy the whole morning, and afternoon. By the way, I'm sure you guys know who is "her", unless you have short term memory.

So I went to school, just staring at clouds which is pretty bad, but at least it didn't rain today. I liked my styled hair, thanks to her, with her new styling hands! *cheerful laughs*

I reached school, went to the 4th floor and sat on the locker's top. After that, Derrick came and splashed water like a Merlion. Well, he's already a lion to start with! After that, 4D's very own couple came, along with Mengci! Derrick spit water again, oh well. After a while, Mr Kung came and we all went into the classroom for the Mathematics lesson.

I don't know why I'm so concentrated during the lesson. I was able to think out of the box, do everything like as if I've done it before. Yeah, Mathematics lesson without Mr Kung was pretty lifeless. His lessons are best, in my view. Easy to understand! Very smooth as well. But hell, I don't know why I kept on smiling throughout the whole lesson. I even thought I was a retard. *bangs wall and drop dead*

After the lesson, I walked to Tiong Bahru Plaza. While walking, I saw all of them climbing over the school side wall. Haha, I just walked on, reaching the traffic lights and then heading up to the music section. I wanted to buy Mary J. Blige and Paramore's music album, because their music's really nice! But they didn't have it, so I went to Comic's Connection and Challenger for the Diablo Game Pack. It costs a whooping $70, and I only had $50 with me. Oh well.. *bangs wall twice and drop dead on a bed of dogs*

I went to the MRT, and the trains were fully packed with people. I waited for two trains, and both are equally full. So I gave up, and walked back to school, to take a bus. While walking, I saw Charlene, and was glad that she smiled. Haha, it's better than getting ignored right? Then saw some of the Scouts, who were building a gateway for this 5th April's Stepping Up Ceremony cum 86th Campfire! I'm going to try and help, in any way I can, I hope.

I waited for the bus, and really, the buses are not even full. I sat down, and enjoyed a bus ride of relived dreams.

I reached home after about 45 minutes, and yes, I do take that long to get from house to school and likewise, from school to house. I was dead tired, so decided to rest for awhile, and then logged into MSN.

I chat with a lot of people today. I just chat with Sally, and she said that ITE Life isn't all that great. Higher NITEC was full of essay-writing and stuff. Somehow, I got this feeling that I'll be going into ITE, because I got no guarantee getting into Secondary 5. If ever I get promoted to Secondary 5, the Life in Secondary 5 is going to be harder, that is if I can even get into Secondary 5. I'm very worried about Combined Humanities, taught by A.J and Miss Foo. I'm really worried.. But well, I'll try my best to get into Secondary 5. *bangs wall 4 times and go eat sausages*

And after a while..

I know why I'm so happy today.

It's because I hugged Suying! Her cries and sorrows stopped after I hugged her.. Really, Suying, I really love you, because I care for you. I promise that I'll protect you from any harm, even if it costs my Life. And today, I felt really sad, just seeing you cry like that. Be happy alright! Cheer up! *gives a peek-a-boo face*

Thanks for visiting and may God bless you!

Hey Juliet!

Just want to share a really catchy song, which I posted last year too! So yeah, just sharing it again!

Current blog song: Hey Juliet! by LMNT

Lyrics:

[Intro]
Hey Juliet
Hey Juliet

Hey I've been watchin' you
Every little thing you do
Everytime I see you pass in my home-room class
Makes my heart beat fast
I've tried to page you twice
But I see you roll your eyes
Wish I could make you reel
But your lips are sealed
That ain't no big deal

Cuz I know you really want me
I hear your friends talk about me
So why you tryin' to do without me
When you got me
Where you want me?

Chorus:
Hey Juliet
I think you're fine
You really blow my mind
Maybe someday
You and me can run away
I just want you to know
I wanna be your Romeo
Hey Juliet
Hey Juliet

Hey Juliet

Girl you got me on my knees
Beggin' please, baby please
Got my best DJ on the radio way
Sayin' hey Juliet what are you doin' this week
To fall or turn around
So I'm gonna stand my ground
Gimme just a little bit of hope
With a smile or a glance give me one more chance

Cuz I know you really want me
I hear your friends talk about me
So why you tryin' to do without me
When you got me
Where you want me?

[Chorus]

I know you really want me
I hear your friends talk about me
So why you tryin' to do without me
When you got me
Where you want me?

You have to see the weather
For us to hang together
So hear me when I say
Hey Hey Hey Juliet
Hey Juliet
Hey Juliet

Chorus [x2]

Hey Juliet
Hey Hey Juliet
Hey Juliet
Hey Hey Juliet
Hey Juliet

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Thanks for visiting and may God bless you!